I Need To Explain Myself
I just...argh, I'm not looking for pity or a free pass or anything like that. I just wanted everyone to know that I am ADD, dyslexic, and have severe anxiety. I know everyone's ADD these days, but it's really debilitating for me. I'm just saying if something happens in a post or a thread or a comment even, and my characters never exactly responded as they should, or if I missed something important, or even if I forget an entire person - it's not deliberate.
I get really freaked out when other characters start calling out my characters for screwing up when it's not them, it's me. This is also sometimes why I go on hiatus, because the anxiety gets so heavy that I need to leave.
Trust me, I'm not saying this so that people pat me on the shoulder and coddle me - believe me, that sort of thing drives me crazy, because it's not like I'm doing this for attention. I never, ever want to come across as someone who's bitching for attention. I just wanted to people know that it can get really hard for me.
I guess this is also a good time if anybody else wants to get anything out there, if they feel like they'd like to share if they have anything we should know about. I'm not offering it to put people on trial, and I'm not forcing anyone to 'explain themselves', I just wanted everyone to know that I got your back, okay? I love you guys, and I would never be all, "Well, great, he/she's got depression, but that's not an excuse." Because it's really important.
I'm sorry and thank you, everyone!