dani_meows (dani_meows) wrote in bipolardanicats, @ 2011-09-02 15:05:00 |
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Somewhere Over the Rainbow
Title: Somewhere Over the Rainbow
Fandom: Sherlock BBC
Pairing:John/Sherlock
Rating:PG
Word Count:300
Notes: A prequel for yesterday's drabble at the request of Totally-T3ii3 . Written for prompt 32. Rainbow. I wasn't certain if I could write this with this prompt when my mp3 helpfully shuffled to July Garland singing Somewhere Over The Rainbow, and hello idea. Unbetaed and if anyone else wants me to continue an old drabble or to write a certain genre feel free to mention it and I'll do my best.
Words kept running through his head, an endless parade of words, first the words that Donavan and Anderson had said, which he'd mostly discarded as useless and then the words he'd found on the internet that proved that they might be right.
He was abusive to John. He hurt John. He emotionally abused his lover. Sherlock sat on the couch, clinging to one of John's jumpers. He rocked himself back and forth as he tried to figure out what to do.
He was so lost in his head space that he didn't observe John coming in, he didn't notice him speaking, or sense him at all until a hand was laid on his shoulders.
"Sherlock?" his beloved asked. His beloved who he hurt with his inability to be normal.
"You're crying... what happened?" John gathered him up in a hug.
"I'm an emotional abuser. I should leave you..." Sherlock began, even as he clung to John tightly. He didn't want to go. He didn't want to end this. The year that John has lived with him, first as just a flatmate, then as Sherlock's friend and finally as his lover, has been the best year of Sherlock's life. Not because of the cases or the appearance of an enemy but because of John's love.
The whole story spilled out. John began trying to convince him otherwise, showered him with kisses, told him over and over again that no he wasn't an emotional abuser, that John knew that he was loved, and that Sherlock was perfect for John.
As Sherlock tried to relax and believe the words, John began to rock him even as his hands continued to rub his back in soft soothing circles.
John began to sing in a soft tone, "Somewhere over the rainbow..."