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Tweak says, "Filthy Mudbloods"

Claire Saunders (notsofortunate) wrote in beyondthepages,
@ 2010-05-20 01:33:00

Entry tags:

!complete, 2023 10, jaime davies, regulus black

RP: Non-Conforming As Can Be
Characters: Regulus, Jaime
Time/Date: 19 October 2023, eveningish time
Location: Common commons
Warnings/Rating: TBD - language warning, though
Summary: Reg's kind of losing his mind.
Status: Complete

If he was being honest with himself, he really wanted nothing more than to curl up in his room, on his bed, and just sit there for the rest of the night. He didn't want to be out in the open. But at the same time, he didn't want to be alone.

He'd sent a note to his brother. He didn't know what had possessed him to do that except for the sudden stark reality that was that he didn't have anyone else to turn to. While he didn't expect it, he had vague hopes of Sirius pulling his head out of his ass long enough to realize that Regulus was really hurting, was really scared, and to be the big brother he'd never been very good at being and give a shit but he really wasn't holding out much hope for that. He wasn't holding up much hope of a response. He was likely just confirming what Sirius already knew, really.

But a little brother was always going to hope. Even if - by some random, fucking anonmally - he was now the elder of the two of them.

He wasn't really aware of his surroundings, or doing much. He was kind of curled up on one of the couches, staring into the fire. He both wanted to talk to someone, and wanted to be left alone, and didn't want to be alone ever again.

For all he knew, all of this panic was for naught. The Dark Lord wouldn't care. He hadn't really betrayed him yet after all - maybe he could convince him that he never would. Or that it was lies. Maybe all of this panic was pointless because they were going to catch him and kill him again.

But even still. He couldn't help but feel this was only the beginning of the hell the wizarding world was about to face.

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notsofortunate
2010-05-23 10:46 am UTC (link)

He raised an eyebrow, genuinely surprised. "You're serious," he said slowly. "I'm a novelty snog?"

Well maybe not him specifically, but the returned dead. He knew that James, Sirius and Remus would probably be up high on everyone's list, and they were probably just loving that. But there was something very intriguing, and somewhat annoying about being little more than a novelty to a group of females, and not being aware of it.

"I don't think I require a list, no," he said. He wasn't planning on actively seeking these girls out - and he didn't feel the need to specify that he was into girls, he thought that would be obvious - "Though I'm curious to how you would go about acquiring one. Would you just... ask?"

Not because he wanted to make a list, but it seemed an odd thing for someone to go around asking, 'do you want to snog a zombie?' and making a list for him. Or worse, perhaps she'd be asking, 'do you want to snog Regulus?' He'd be horrified.

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jaime_davies
2010-05-23 11:08 am UTC (link)

"I don't really have to ask," Jaime said. "Girls gossip all the effing time, and there's tons of journal entries you just can't see because they're warded to the 'puff girls. So I know who's mooning over who, and who wants to snog a zombie just to see what it's like, and some how actually want to meet them and ask them questions about their pasts and the like."

Jaime paused. "I'm not one of them, mind. I wouldn't turn it down if it came my way, but I'm just not interested in the pursuit of novelties." That part, at least, was true enough. She wasn't interested in pursuing anyone just then. Especially people as potentially unstable as the foreigners and the zombies. Who was to say the returned dead wouldn't just drop dead at some point?

No, she'd stick to living people. People who weren't going to screw her over and break her heart like her father had broken so many women's hearts.

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notsofortunate
2010-05-24 03:01 am UTC (link)

He noted her use of the slang term for Hufflepuff, having not heard mention of her house til this point, and filed the information away. He wasn't certain it was relevant information, but every little bit helped when you were learning about a person.

"Fascinating," he murmured. "So girls simply... post, in the journals, to other girls about these sorts of things? It seems foolish. What if your journal were to be stolen, and your secrets read?" he shook his head. He didn't think he'd ever be able to understand women.

"I suppose I should feel relieved," he said when she mentioned that she wasn't interested in pursuing zombies as novelty items. "It does seem an odd way to spend one's time, stalking those who have returned and those who are simply staying here for the tournament. It isn't as though the individuals are any different or more admirable than the students already enrolled."

He thought about asking her what she was interested in pursuing, if not returned individuals and foreign ones, but he thought that to be too personal a question for someone he'd just met, that may be construed the wrong way.

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jaime_davies
2010-05-24 03:19 am UTC (link)

"Honestly, some girls want that sort of thing known. They want other people to slip, or tell their crush that they're into them, so that they can find out if their crush likes them back without having to actually put themselves out there and face the possibility of rejection. Not claiming it makes sense, but ... that's how it goes."

Jaime grinned. "They aren't any different, but they're new. They're people we haven't been seeing for the past seven years, and one of them might be our one true love or something. So we have to investigate, experiment, find out if they really are just the same as the people we have known for the past seven years."

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notsofortunate
2010-05-24 04:24 am UTC (link)

He blinked, and tried to follow along, but it was clear a lot of it was going over his head. "You're explaining it clearly enough, but the concept of it makes little sense to me. It seems an overly complicated method of initiating a relationship, and I highly doubt that it is ever as effective as they would like it to be."

He shook his head slightly, a grin growing on his face. "Do you suppose that ever proves to be true? The foreign student or the recently returned deceased ending up being of some sort of soul mate to a student here? I do not understand how this would be something to buy into. Is it because of the fairytale magic of it, or are some girls truly that desperate for attention that they would convince themselves of anything?"

He paused, biting the inside of his cheek a moment too late to stop the thought. "Apologies, that was probably quite rude. It just seems such a strange thing to spend so much effort focusing on from my viewpoint. I cannot understand the motivation." He shrugged. "This is perhaps because I am not female."

He realized, belatedly, that this was what he'd been looking for. Something to take his mind of the evening, and felt a sudden swell of gratitude to Jaime for that.

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jaime_davies
2010-05-24 04:49 am UTC (link)

"Girls ... don't make sense. Ever." Jaime quirked a brow. "I thought by now, even in your time, you'd know this by now." She paused. "Unless you never paid attention to girls 'cause you're gay, in which case, it's really all right to be out about it now. I mean, Tris is out and no one really gives him any shit about it. Maybe because he's a werewolf and he'd threaten to eat them." She grinned. "Not that he would."

Jaime shrugged again. "There's someone for everyone, right? And if you believe in Fate or whatever, then it's possible someone who was brought here was fated to hook up with someone here, so ... everyone here is looking to find that person, to be that one. I don't think it's desperation for attention, but who knows?"

She waved off the apology and grinned. "It's because you're not a girl. Our brains find the most convoluted, twisted path to an endgoal whereas boys take the straight shot."

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notsofortunate
2010-05-24 06:01 am UTC (link)

He shook his head - apparently he did need to clarify. "Not interested in blokes," he said. At least, as far as he knew. 'Course, he'd never really been interested in much, so. "Can't say that I ever really gave girls much thought though, while I was in school. Too busy trying to be a model son and all that."

He'd never really focused on girls. He'd been waiting to be given direction in that area - who would be the best match up for Regulus Black. He was certain someone would tell him eventually. Not to mention that he'd been struggling with dealing with the peer pressure of succumbing to the Dark Lord, homework, Quidditch practices, being the subject of an unfair number of pranks from his brother and his blasted friends... Girls had been one of the farthest things from his mind.

"I imagine it must be quite taxing," he remarked to her statement about girls taking the convoluted path to an endgoal. "How are you even able to study?"

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jaime_davies
2010-05-24 06:16 am UTC (link)

"Well, if you never thought about either, maybe you are into blokes and just don't know it yet," Jaime offered. "It happens, you know. Or maybe you're attracted to both and one day there'll just be sparks or fireworks or something ridiculous like that." She grinned.

"It's a challenge. We're very easily distracted because there are lots of little scenic views on our convoluted pathways that we like to ponder." She chuckled softly. "Though if that was your way of telling me to piss off so you could study ..." She waggled her brows. "Consider it a hint taken."

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notsofortunate
2010-05-24 07:19 am UTC (link)

He was going to argue, but it seemed pointless. His argument would have been something along the lines of being a pureblood and tradition but... he didn't really expect her to understand that, so he simply nodded his head. "Perhaps," he allowed, though he didn't really believe it to be true.

He raised an eyebrow in amusement at her statement, and shook his head. He hadn't meant to suggest that she should go. "It was not a hint," he assured her. "But if you had somewhere else you need to be, I will not keep you. It was a pleasure speaking with you, Jaime," and he was surprised to find that he meant that.

His eyes darted down to his journal. No responses yet, but he had expected as much. He did think he was calmed down enough that he'd at least be able to try and get some sleep tonight, though, which was something.

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jaime_davies
2010-05-24 01:58 pm UTC (link)

She didn't really, but she figured she could roam off all the same. Go somewhere less distracting where she could focus on the homework thing. Swinging her legs off the couch, she stood up and adjusted her clothing. "Nice talking to you too," she said with a grin before she started toward the door.

"And let me know if you change your mind on that list. I can get it put together in a couple of days, right?"

She laughed softly before she let herself out to go see what other mischief she could get into, or what other zombies she could talk to.

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