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Tweak says, "GO! GO! GO! FASTER! GO!"

lotte karsten {christine daaé} (still_lotte) wrote in bellumlogs,
@ 2010-05-17 14:01:00

Entry tags:

christine daaé, phantom of the opera

Who: Lotte and Bran
What: Hearing things
Where: 1206/1106
When: Backdated to Saturday, sometime after this
Warnings: Crying and crazy.

She'd tried making herself one of Katya's teas after she'd taken a shower. Being clean and pajamas should have been enough to get her to calm down, but Lotte couldn't escape the miserable feeling that had been with her since that morning. Talking to Not-Erik had made her feel temporarily better the day before - but of course, that had let to Ella's accusations and storytelling. Diego's leaving had led to her breakdown in public - the embarassment from that was enough to crush her further. She couldn't go back there now after such a spectacle - and if anyone had seen her, they'd know she really was crazy. And Diego was leaving her, just like...

Before she'd even gotten the kettle out, Lotte was crying again. It was quiet, slightly muffled as she tried to stop - because hadn't she cried enough today? - and she managed to fill her tea kettle and put it on the stove. But her hand shook as she turned on the stove, ending with her giving up. The kettle crashed into the sink and she slumped to the cabinet next to it. She didn't even bother trying to hide the noises anymore, getting louder as everything bad that had happened crashed down on her again. Her father, the voices, the dress from the production, Diego leaving, no one believing her, being unable to write that letter... She couldn't escape it, no matter what she turned her mind to.

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lemortvivant
2010-05-20 04:10 am UTC (link)

Bran resisted the urge to start talking about the building and how insane it was, since it was too risky. He still didn't like that she thought herself crazy, but he could deal with that later. "Usually" was all he said before considering her next question.

When to start - that was a good question. He needed to prepare, although an imaginary voice wouldn't, would it? Then again, it wouldn't need to justify itself either. "The end of this week," he said after a moment's pause, sounding confident and final. She wasn't meant to argue.

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	still_lotte 2010-05-20 04:29 am UTC (link)
	Lotte remained on her knees on the tile for a moment, reaching up to wipe at her face. Even if his tone was enough to say she shouldn't argue, she couldn't help but hesitantly ask, "And when no one else is here, right?" She couldn't have that insanity combined with this. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lemortvivant 2010-05-20 05:03 am UTC (link)
	He had to bite down on his tongue to keep from laughing. Oh Lotte. She really did worry too much. "Of course - when no one else is here." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	still_lotte 2010-05-20 05:06 am UTC (link)
	For a moment, she frowned - it really wasn't fair if her own subconcious mocked her. But she sighed and said, "I better - better take care of things." She had a letter to write after all and needed to wash her face. "So you can...vanish now?" It shouldn't have been this difficult to term things with a hallucination. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

lemortvivant
2010-05-20 05:09 am UTC (link)

Oh God, he really had no idea why the urge to laugh was so strong. It wasn't a humorous situation, and he knew that, but he wondered if he was finally beginning to lose it. Or maybe it was one of those things that was so not-funny that somewhere along the line it became the opposite. "Alright. Until the end of the week, then."

With that Bran slid off the bed, away from the ceiling, and began to look through his collection of books. If he was going to become Lotte's new voice coach, he needed to prepare himself.

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