stephanie nashton does it all (forthem) wrote in rooms, @ 2014-05-15 05:18:00 |
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Entry tags: | !dc comics, *delivery, eddie nigma, stephanie brown |
stephanie leaves a letter (eddie n.)
[Left on the bar in their kitchen of their apartment, right where Eddie can see, two days after that argument and Dick being brought to the Cave:]
Eddie, I hope you come home to get this. I tried to call. But that’s not what matters right now, is it? None of the petty bullshit matters anymore. I’m not home, and I don’t know if I’ll be home for a while. I’m checking myself into the VA on the other side of town. I couldn’t wait. I haven’t slept for days, and I saw Owlman in our bedroom and shot at him. Only he wasn’t there. What if it had been you? What if I did that to you? I finally realize that I need real help, baby, and I’m going to get it. I’m finally going to get it. I’m so sorry for the past month and a half. I’m so sorry I didn’t listen better, or didn’t heed your advice. You know me better than I know myself most days. Especially these days. And, I’m sorry I drove you insane. Literally. Insane. Hurting you is something I’ve never, ever wanted to do, but I keep doing it and doing it, and that can’t happen anymore. I don’t want to lose you, Eddie. I can’t think of my life without you. I don’t want to think about it. It doesn’t have any meaning without you. Because there’s still all those things we both want, and you know what? I think we can still have it if I get my shit together. So, that’s what I’m doing. Getting my shit together. Finally. I love you, Eddie. I love you more than anything in the universe, in the multiverse, in any plane of existence. I love you more than there are stars in the skies. I’m doing this so we can have that white picket fence and those sticky-fingered baby boys and the farm. So that we can have our own version of a fairytale. Better than all those other fairytales. Because? This one will be real and alive and ours. I hope you’ll still want me. I hope you’ll still be there when I come back, whenever that is, because I believe in us. More than anything, I believe in us. I love you. You have my heart always. Stephanie |