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Damian is son & (heir) wrote in repose,
@ 2018-01-21 05:33:00

Entry tags:

*forum, *text, abe winters, beau williams, burden bell, cat dubrovna, damian wainright, daniel webster, dietre abendroth, nilus doe, ra's algol, sadie marella, sasha james

Dietre A+Nilus, Daniel W, Carnival, Naila a-K, Cat C, FLEET: Misha B
[Locked to Dietre A+Nilus]
The lawyers have told me you ought be out by the middle of next month.

[Locked to Daniel W]
Hello.

[Carnival lock: Abe W, Sasha J, Beau W, Dietre A, Misha B, Sadie M]
Greet Sadie. She is now your coworker.

[Locked to Naila a-K]
[In Arabic.] Greetings.

[Locked to Cat C]
I failed.

[FLEET: Misha B]
[Sent to Misha is a fifteen second long video of Pennyworth, shot from overhead, as the kitten sleeps in Damian's hood—as he is wearing his hoodie.]

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	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-23 07:50 am UTC (link)
	`I do not want to. It feels pathetic. The ghost? So he is cognizant. I wonder what he will do. I will, of course, attempt to remain alive. Misha, you idiot boy, you do manage it, shut up. And I think perfectly, no matter where you are in relation to me.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: [Fleet]
tithe
2018-01-23 07:52 am UTC (link)

I don't reckon it'll be forever, Dami. I ain't sure, but Dietre wants to be loved by both him and Liam, and you ain't wrong that he's not real concerned with loving them back. He says he wants to love Nilus, on account of Nilus says he can love him. I ain't sure bout this Liam any. And thanks for being so willing to remain living. You ain't meant to call me an idiot when I'm spilling romantic thoughts all over you.

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Re: [Fleet]
heir
2018-01-23 07:56 am UTC (link)

Why not? Dietre wants to be loved by any who might have him. I do not think you would be discounted, had you shown interest. Which means it is not about Liam or Dietre or any of them, which is in direct contrast to what you have just explained, about love being for another. Then do not be an idiot whilst spilling romantic thoughts all over me. Tell me now why you feel awfully.

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Re: [Fleet]
tithe
2018-01-23 08:04 am UTC (link)

I reckon time passes and we got each other, and maybe all that needing won't be as strong as it was. It comes from being alone, I reckon, and we ain't no more. I know. I told him that a whole lot, but I don't reckon he understands me. [He sends this conversation.]

You can't call my honesty idiotic. It ain't done.

[There's a pause some.]

It ain't bout me feeling awful really. If I tell you something, you got to not take it personal and reckon it's criticism. It's just me saying what I need, like I want you to say what you need if I ain't getting it right. You ken?

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	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-23 08:17 am UTC (link)
	`To want another's approval—you know what I am going to say, so I will not bother.`[After reading.]`No. I do not reckon he does. It is done when it is idiotic. You do see Dietre is espousing some views you have. About not being good for another and such. You told him to allow them to decide. So I will decide.`[.....] `Okay. I ken.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: [Fleet]
tithe
2018-01-23 08:22 am UTC (link)

I don't know. You say what you're thinking. I keep thinking he can go from wanting to be loved to loving. Children do, and he's still sussing things out like a child. Hush. You said things I did wrong, and them things are what I'm referencing. I'm allowed to do that. But I ain't rushing off on account, am I? That's letting you decide.

[There's a pause here.]

I ain't even sure how to say it without sounding real pathetic and maybe some like Dietre. Asking for things ain't easy.

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	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-23 08:23 am UTC (link)
	`Ask me.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] tithe 2018-01-23 08:32 am UTC (link)
	`I was upset a whole lot bout the encounter in the cafe, and I know you and me are different and we don't always need the same things, but I know you get real frustrated with me for not answering straight. Usually, when that happens, it means I'm upset, and if you just show some affection some it'll be easier for me, and you'll get better answers, I reckon.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-23 08:33 am UTC (link)
	`Okay. I am sorry. What do you mean, affection?` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] tithe 2018-01-23 08:37 am UTC (link)
	`You ain't got to apologize. There ain't no way for you to know. I don't know, just kind words or a hug could be. I know that sounds real weak likely.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-23 08:43 am UTC (link)
	[...] `No, Misha. I am glad you have told me. Do you require a hug now?` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] tithe 2018-01-23 08:50 am UTC (link)
	[He's rubbing his face and red as cherries, and he's real glad Damian can't see.] `That sounds awful needy. I'm just saying for next time, could be you'd be aggravated with me less.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-23 08:59 am UTC (link)
	`I am often needful and you tell me there is no shame in it.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] tithe 2018-01-23 09:02 am UTC (link)
	`There ain't. It's just harder to say when it's me saying it.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-23 09:06 am UTC (link)
	`I know. Perhaps I require a hug. Now will you meet me?` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] tithe 2018-01-23 09:10 am UTC (link)
	`Hush. You do not. I'll meet whenever you want to meet, and you know that plenty well.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-23 09:14 am UTC (link)
	`Will you allow me to put ice upon your eyeball?`[...] `I know you say I do not need to apologize and perhaps it is selfish to insist, but I am sorry, Misha.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] tithe 2018-01-23 09:19 am UTC (link)
	`It'll heal faster than most folks. You ain't got to, but I won't say no to it. Damian, hush. You really ain't got to apologize. I don't reckon anyone scooped you up and hugged you when you scraped your knee small. You ain't got no reason to reckon I need that.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-23 09:31 am UTC (link)
	`It will help me feel better.`[...] `What do you mean? I do not connect the points. Is this what your foster father did? I reckon the mother did not.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] tithe 2018-01-23 09:33 am UTC (link)
	`Why do you feel poorly? No, I mean if you didn't never feel better that way, then why would you reckon someone else would feel better that way? But, yes, my daddy did. My foster momma didn't.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-23 09:36 am UTC (link)
	`You were punched in the eye. He hugged you? To offer comfort? And your wound? What did he do with this?` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] tithe 2018-01-23 09:39 am UTC (link)
	`It ain't actually the punching that bothered me bout it. If my knee was scraped? He'd likely get me a bandaid, could be take me for some ice cream.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-23 09:40 am UTC (link)
	`Tell me what bothered you. Does th`[...] `Okay. I will remember this.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] tithe 2018-01-23 09:42 am UTC (link)
	`That I wasn't doing nothing and wasn't actually all that close to the man who got himself offended. Why does it matter? I don't want you to be him, Dami.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-23 09:46 am UTC (link)
	`It was about him, not you. His masculinity.`[...] `But You just said it mattered. That you thought the ways we reacted were born of how we were raised. It matters then how you were raised. Do not confuse me.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)