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Tweak says, "they better be fried!"

Damian is son & (heir) wrote in repose,
@ 2018-01-21 05:33:00

Entry tags:

*forum, *text, abe winters, beau williams, cat dubrovna, damian wainright, daniel webster, dietre abendroth, misha bellamy, nilus doe, ra's algol, sadie marella, sasha james

Dietre A+Nilus, Daniel W, Carnival, Naila a-K, Cat C, FLEET: Misha B
[Locked to Dietre A+Nilus]
The lawyers have told me you ought be out by the middle of next month.

[Locked to Daniel W]
Hello.

[Carnival lock: Abe W, Sasha J, Beau W, Dietre A, Misha B, Sadie M]
Greet Sadie. She is now your coworker.

[Locked to Naila a-K]
[In Arabic.] Greetings.

[Locked to Cat C]
I failed.

[FLEET: Misha B]
[Sent to Misha is a fifteen second long video of Pennyworth, shot from overhead, as the kitten sleeps in Damian's hood—as he is wearing his hoodie.]

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	Re: [Fleet] tithe 2018-01-22 09:31 am UTC (link)
	`But his first child, he wouldn't have done that, sweetheart. He would've tried to control every last thing the first time round. I reckon that's just humor nature, thinking you can do something best. Do you trust your aunt any?` [He pauses some.] `I reckon you're loyal to your own beliefs and your own ways of thinking, and not to someone else's. Am I wrong?` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-22 10:27 am UTC (link)
	`I have no way of knowing if she is his first child, really. He has been alive for thousands of years. It is unlikely. No.`[...] `No. I suppose not.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] tithe 2018-01-22 10:50 am UTC (link)
	`He ain't human? Do you trust your grandfather any? But you're still bothered?` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-22 11:12 am UTC (link)
	`He is, mostly, I believe. He uses the Lazarus Pits, you recall. They say he has demon's blood, but that could easily be myth. I trust him to be consistent to his cause. I do not know.` (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-22 06:52 pm UTC (link)
	[And when Nilus messages.] `Nilus has messaged me to ask my perspective on love. He must require a human perspective.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] tithe 2018-01-22 08:59 pm UTC (link)
	`You told me bout the Pits. I recall. But, sweetheart, what is it you're going to do if you find this child? Get to know them? We're talking some too. He's remembered his boy, the one that died.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-22 09:02 pm UTC (link)
	[A scoff.] `Yes. I suspected this. You did what you could, yes? Do not beat yourself up over it. I know you.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] tithe 2018-01-23 02:28 am UTC (link)
	`You tell me why. I ain't blaming myself. I only did what he asked, and I didn't have no clue how to do it on my own. I reckon maybe something strong can't never be forgot. It's actually soothing to me some.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-23 03:59 am UTC (link)
	`You thought I would murder them? I would remove them and keep them away from Grandfather, if I could. Okay. Why is it soothing?` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: [Fleet]
tithe
2018-01-23 04:06 am UTC (link)

I didn't think you'd murder a child, Dami. I know you better than you know yourself sometimes, I reckon, when it comes to you being a good person. I was going to ask, if you answered how you just done, why you'd want to be loyal to someone when you'd want to remove a child from their influencing? I don't reckon folks that matter should be forgettable. It's like them dying twice.

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	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-23 04:17 am UTC (link)
	`Then you know my answer. It is not, because they are not known enough to die again. I agree that makes it tragic, but the whole point is that it is not like the first time.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] tithe 2018-01-23 04:26 am UTC (link)
	[He ain't sure:] `To take control? I meant for them, not for the folk left behind.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-23 04:51 am UTC (link)
	`No. I do not know. Oh. Do you believe he is cognizant of this? It is possible too your priorities change when you are dead.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] tithe 2018-01-23 05:41 am UTC (link)
	`You don't want to commit? I didn't mean literal neither. I ain't sure I can explain it, but it makes me sad for the person gone and forgot is all.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-23 05:53 am UTC (link)
	`I just do not know. Perhaps Grandfather is right about me, that I am a thing, not someone meant to truly decide his own fate. When faced with a choice, I falter. Oh. I see. I understand. But that is death. It is sad, but we are all forgotten in the end.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: [Fleet]
tithe
2018-01-23 05:58 am UTC (link)

Your grandaddy ain't right. He's never been right bout you. And not wanting to close doors, specially on kin, is normal, Dami. It's part of growing, and it would be real strange if you weren't conflicted. If my foster daddy was alive and standing fore me, I'd be torn bout what to do. That ain't so. Not while someone lives that loved us. After, alright, after we're forgot, but this ain't that. This is forgetting while you're still breathing.

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	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-23 06:03 am UTC (link)
	`Really? I would kill him. Yes. It is extreme. I do not know that I could make that choice, even out of pain. I thought perhaps you would ask me what I told Nilus of my perspective, but you are distracted, I think.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] tithe 2018-01-23 06:22 am UTC (link)
	`You reckon I don't want to do away with your kin real awful? I do. You wouldn't forget me? We're talking bout mortality and Alyssa and you dying, and that's real distracting, thinking on you passing and talking bout your kin makes me think on it more, specially when I'm already feeling awful some. I'm real sorry, ahuvi. What'd you say your perspective was?` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-23 06:49 am UTC (link)
	`I know you do, but I am an assassin. You are an angel. In this case, I believe I am more likely to be lethal. I would not forget you. Not ever.`[...] `No, I did not mean you had to ask. You feel awful, because of these topics?` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] tithe 2018-01-23 07:12 am UTC (link)
	`But the wanting's there all the same. That's my point. Even if I was gone and it wasn't practical, remembering? I'm asking on account of wanting to know. Tell me? I'll tell you bout feeling awful if you do.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-23 07:19 am UTC (link)
	`I know. And I trust your judgement. I know you are right. I know there is no reason` [...] `It should not be a difficult choice. Yes, even then. Would you me? I suppose that is the more likely scenario.` [He screenshots the conversation, down to the most recent comment.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: [Fleet]
tithe
2018-01-23 07:32 am UTC (link)

And it shouldn't be a difficult choice if my daddy were standing in front of me, but it would be. I wouldn't want to be without you, and I ain't sure I could be, but I wouldn't want to forget. I just told Nilus that. I know you'll pass fore I do, less I Fall deliberate.

[A delay as he reads.]

You're real articulate and real good with him. You really think them things, bout us?

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	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-23 07:35 am UTC (link)
	`Yes.` [...] `Is it about approval? Continuing to seek approval from these once-parental figures? I will not make you discuss my mortality. You have already mentioned feeling awful and it not helping. I do.`[...] `What do you think? What would your answer be?` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: [Fleet]
tithe
2018-01-23 07:42 am UTC (link)

I reckon. When we're small, all we want is their affection and approval, and I hope most children get it just as part of living. We didn't, and so I reckon we're still seeking it. I don't want you dying. Nilus says he talked to the boy who died, and the boy told him he'd wait for him and asked him not to date Dietre. What would my answer be if asked my thoughts on love? I reckon loving is caring bout someone else more than yourself, which I do bout you, and trusting you do the same for me. I think you make me stronger and better able to deal with things, and I know I don't always manage to do that for you, but I try. I don't reckon it's weakness. I reckon it's strength. It's knowing there's someone there to help you up when you fall, and knowing you ain't alone when bad or good happens. Too, it's wanting to see you thrive and smile and laugh. It's wanting you to be happy, and it's wanting to see it. And it ain't perfect. Dietre asks after it being perfect, and could be once I believed it was, but I reckon it's flawed just like every other beautiful thing bout humanity it. Heaven's perfect, and it ain't anywhere near as beautiful as messy, flawed loving. Too, I reckon attraction comes with it, and I can't think real well when you're round me.

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	Re: [Fleet] heir 2018-01-23 07:50 am UTC (link)
	`I do not want to. It feels pathetic. The ghost? So he is cognizant. I wonder what he will do. I will, of course, attempt to remain alive. Misha, you idiot boy, you do manage it, shut up. And I think perfectly, no matter where you are in relation to me.` (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)