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Tweak says, "I love humans."

Adam just wants to go to prom (wearmetotheprom) wrote in portland_net,
@ 2014-05-24 13:50:00

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adam winchester, jessica moore, sam winchester, wanderer

[Filtered to TFW (except in his delirium he actually made it public)]

If anyone happens to see me passed out here on the couch, I'm not actually dead just in severe pain all over. Being a girl sucks.

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	all_my_lives 2014-05-24 06:12 pm UTC (link)
	Adam? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	wearmetotheprom 2014-05-24 06:14 pm UTC (link)
	Wanda? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	all_my_lives 2014-05-24 06:16 pm UTC (link)
	Are you okay? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wearmetotheprom 2014-05-24 06:17 pm UTC (link)
	Considering I intended this to be seen by about a handful of people only, I would say 'not really'. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Wanda/Adam all_my_lives 2014-05-24 06:19 pm UTC (link)
	I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to comment. I was just worried. I'll leave you alone if you want. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Wanda/Adam wearmetotheprom 2014-05-24 06:21 pm UTC (link)
	It's fine. I'm just being a bitch. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Wanda/Adam all_my_lives 2014-05-24 06:22 pm UTC (link)
	You are not. Your emotions are simply not your own. It's understandable. Do you need anything? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Wanda/Adam wearmetotheprom 2014-05-24 06:24 pm UTC (link)
	~~My dick back~~ A certain part of my anatomy to return to me. Sorry. No. Yes. I don't know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Wanda/Adam all_my_lives 2014-05-24 06:26 pm UTC (link)
	I wish I could help with that. I know what it's like to live in a foreign body. What's your address? I can bring you tea to make you feel better. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Wanda/Adam wearmetotheprom 2014-05-24 06:29 pm UTC (link)
	That's one way of putting it. My address? You mean the place where I live with my monster hunting brothers? That's what you're asking for? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Wanda/Adam all_my_lives 2014-05-24 06:32 pm UTC (link)
	I suppose, yes. I'm not afraid of them. I'm not afraid to die. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Wanda/Adam wearmetotheprom 2014-05-24 06:33 pm UTC (link)
	They're not going to kill you for bringing me tea. ~~At least I hope not~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Wanda/Adam all_my_lives 2014-05-24 06:35 pm UTC (link)
	Address. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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	wanda \| sam bornunder 2014-05-24 09:57 pm UTC (link)
	Hi, Wanda. I'm Sam, one of Adam's brothers. You can come over to our house. We're not going to hurt you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wanda \| sam all_my_lives 2014-05-24 10:44 pm UTC (link)
	He told you about me, didn't he? I'm far too trusting of humans. I should know better by now. Hello Sam. I only wish to help your brother if that's alright. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wanda \| sam bornunder 2014-05-24 10:49 pm UTC (link)
	He was only trying to help you be less afraid. And I wanted to help, too. I'm sorry if I'm making it worse. It's completely fine. He could use it. What my brother and I do-- it's not what people might think. We protect people from danger, we don't hurt people just because they aren't human. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wanda \| sam all_my_lives 2014-05-24 10:53 pm UTC (link)
	I don't know if it's worse or better. I'm just very confused by this place, and I don't know who I can trust. I was told to be careful of hunters in this world. But as I said, I don't know who is lying to me or not. Your brother even lied to me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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bornunder
2014-05-24 11:01 pm UTC (link)

I know how you feel. It's kind of an uncomfortable feeling to realize that someone is telling people to be afraid of me. I've never wanted to be frightening, even if I can understand where it's coming from.

You use a human body to survive and move around on Earth, right? We have a friend like that, another part of our family. We don't judge on what you are, just what you do. Someone that tries to make you feel safer, even if it's not exactly what you wanted to happen, is someone that cares about you. Adam never would have talked to me if he actually thought I'd hurt you.

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all_my_lives
2014-05-24 11:20 pm UTC (link)

I do not fear death, Sam. It is the natural course of things. I only fear of what will become of my friends back home if I am erased from existence altogether.

Yes. I am about the size of your pinky finger, and I'm locked away in the back of the neck of my human host. I don't distinguish between myself and my vessel though. I am her. Adam told me that too. An angel, he said. I am foolish to trust so freely, but with him, I cannot help it. He looks like someone I care about very much. I wish I could believe that I am safe here, but I made that mistake once before as well. I will not fight though. No matter what happens to me, I do not fight. Ever.

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	wanda \| sam bornunder 2014-05-24 11:24 pm UTC (link)
	Wow. You're... impressive, honestly. Do you object to someone else fighting in order to defend you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wanda \| sam all_my_lives 2014-05-24 11:35 pm UTC (link)
	I don't consider myself impressive. There isn't anything particularly extraordinary about me. I am expressly against all violence. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wanda \| sam bornunder 2014-05-24 11:40 pm UTC (link)
	Being that peaceful is impressive. It's incredibly rare. Most people, even those who dislike violence, are willing to make exceptions for certain circumstances. Okay. I can respect that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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all_my_lives
2014-05-24 11:49 pm UTC (link)

On Earth in my time, my people have taken over the planet. We did not start a war. We did not hurt or kill anyone. We claimed the planet peacefully, and all of us were given host bodies in which to live in. This is what we do, how we survive. I have lived many lives this way on many planets in many different beings.

And what I learned was this. Humans are the only beings with such a strong sense of individualism, a consciousness that is all their own. I realized only too late that it is inherently and morally wrong to eliminate an entire race of intelligent, conscious beings simply for us to survive and because we enjoy being human. We can survive in other beings. They don't have to be human.

As a result, we have never needed violence. We have always been accepted. I believe, and pardon me if I am mistaken, that violence is created by humans as a result of all your complex emotions. It is not necessary, but I can understand why sometimes you may feel that it is acceptable. I feel human emotions too.

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bornunder
2014-05-25 12:15 am UTC (link)

That depends on your definition of violence. Any animal, pretty much, is capable of inflicting harm. Anything with teeth can use them to bite, anything with claws or nails can use them to scratch. Many of the things that I deal with, as a hunter, are creatures that are basically the opposite of you-- they are expressly violent because it's so hardwired into their instincts that they can't resist the urge to rip, tear, destroy, feed, draw blood. Some of them were originally or are still partially human, or have perverted human instincts, like vampires or werewolves, vengeful spirits, and demons, but not all of them. Some of them simply are, and so far as we can tell, their main purpose is to inflict harm. I'll admit that our perspective might be skewed, because fear naturally makes people (and other animals) biased.

I've been on the receiving end of a lot of different kinds of violence, and I've been a host to more than one other being. Not ones like you-- they definitely intended harm towards me and intended to use me to harm others-- but it's true that from a human perspective, hosting another being inside our bodies is a violation. Even if it isn't violent.

Personally, I would rather resolve any situation without violence or anyone being violated. But before I got here, I lived in a world that was overrun with dark, supernatural creatures of a hundred different types trying to eliminate humans and take over the world for themselves. It makes me wary of other beings that are similarly capable of inflicting violence, and I'm willing to fight to protect people if they turn out to be violent. But I'm not going to hurt anyone, no matter what they are, if they're not hurting anyone, even if that means resisting bloodthirsty instincts. And if you ask me not to fight for you, I won't do that either. Doesn't mean I won't try to protect you, though. It goes against everything I believe in to stand by and watch an innocent get hurt.

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wanda | sam

all_my_lives
2014-05-25 12:47 am UTC (link)

I once lived as a Bear on the Mists Planet. Not a bear like the bears that live on Earth, but they were similar to humans in their emotions and need for social interaction and creativity. There was a creature on the Mists Planet called the Claw Beast. It was not sentient, but it was the natural predator of the Bears. This was the closest I came to violence before humans. If a being is non-sentient, then its reactions of self preservation are natural. As a sentient being, I have to believe there is a way for us to rise above such acts of violence.

When I came to Earth, I was inserted into the body of Melanie Stryder. She is a very strong person both physically and mentally. Unlike most humans, she did not disappear when I began to use her as a host body. She fought me. There were two of us in my head all the time. Her emotions were my emotions and vice versa. We believed at the time that all the humans had been taken as hosts, but some of her family and friends remained entirely human, hidden away in a mountain. I learned through Melanie and all our friends what it means to be human, and I helped them obtain as much of my people's technology as possible. We were able to cure all human diseases and make life easier for humans. Cohabitation is possible, though I would only agree to it if it were similar to the case of my current host body.

I believe you. However, I would not want you getting hurt on my account.

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