|curiouscrux (curiouscrux) wrote in pandemansion,|
@ 2008-07-12 10:42:00
|Entry tags:||arriving, remy 'thirteen' hadly, sirius black|
Arrival of Thirteen, April 18th.
Who?: Thirteen, OTA/Greeter.
What?: Arrival of 13.
When?: April 18th, morning.
Where?: On the beach.
Status? In Progress.
Thirteen had just put the test results beside her. All these years, since her mother’s death, she had been trying to ignore this. Trying to ignore the fear, trying to ignore the possibility of this disease. Now she knew she carried the gene and inevitably she would have Huntington’s. Amber had just died and who knows when she would but she was guessing it would be from this disease. She felt selfish for thinking that, it didn’t seem right. But she couldn’t help but give in to the fear and imagine herself dying like her mother, inexorably before her prime.
She got up and walked across the room. She wanted to cry but she didn’t. She wanted to cry for Amber and for herself but she wouldn’t let that be a reality. She had to keep her courage, she had to keep her composure. Especially around House, she didn’t know what he would say about this. After all that had happened in the last few days, he would probably be thinking about Wilson and Amber; not her. That was fine and dandy. She didn’t want to reveal it to him anyway. She didn’t even want to take the test, she disliked House for making her take the test. The feeling subsided in a few minutes, she needed to know sometime; she just didn’t want it to be this soon. She wanted to wait until her hands were shaking and other symptoms showed before she took the test. She didn't like worrying. That was stupid, she thought, she had been worrying even before her mom died. She was lying to herself. Admittedly, she didn’t know whether this made her feel better or worse.
She was emotionally and physically exhausted, she turned against a wall, ready to lean. As she leaned back, she felt the wall was not there any longer. She felt like she was falling. Her eyes didn’t show her anything for seconds everything appeared navy blue, then she felt the earth slam into her from below. She had slammed into a beach; she was bewildered for several seconds. Sand was falling from her hair as she stood up, straightening her white coat. She felt dizzy but she continued to steady herself, looking up at the big mansion in front of her. She was wondering if she had passed out and this was her Emerald City.