|Jayden Alexander Delacroix (likeafirestar) wrote in nevermore_logs,|
@ 2016-11-08 03:02:00
|Entry tags:||david richardson, jayden delacroix|
WHO: Jayden Delacroix and David Richardson
WHAT: Jayden having a flip out
WHEN: Early Monday morning
WHERE: David's place
WARNINGS: Mentions of self-harm ideation
It felt like Jayden couldn't breathe.
In the past when Jayden got to the point where he was panicked and depressed, he dealt with it in unhealthy ways. He had starved himself and hurt himself and it was a way of avoiding his true feelings. With Jesse in hospital though, Jayden couldn't. The idea of putting his family through more bullshit was unimaginable.
Despite that, the feeling of wanting to didn't go away, and neither did the panic or fear. Which was how Jayden found himself on his boyfriend's front stoop at two in the morning.
Unwilling to wake David's mother for his own issues, instead Jayden pulled out his phone and, shivering, he keyed in David's number, hoping his boyfriend would answer. Jayden honestly didn't know what he would do if left to his own devices. And he hated waking poor David up so late, but he was supposed to reach out, right? This was good?