open!
And then she always wakes up, struggling to breathe around the blade in her ribs.
She climbs out of bed, fumbling for her slippers -- her eyesight, thank goodness, is still perfectly good, but her hands won't stop trembling -- pads slowly through the house, past Janie snoring on her bed, and out onto the porch, shrugging on her coat.
For a minute the cold fresh air steadies her. She stands there, a small shaken old lady in an overstuffed parka, staring out at the dark with the eyes of a terrified boy.