Aiko Namika (aikonamika) wrote in areyougame, @ 2008-10-19 23:51:00 |
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Entry tags: | *final fantasy vii: ac, author: aikonamika |
Absolution, Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children (Kadaj/Cloud)
Title: Absolution
Author: Aiko Namika
Rating: PG-13?
Warnings: Nudity, but nothing more than a kiss. AU.
Word count: 469
Prompt: Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children, Cloud and Kadaj: touching, washing - Neither of them were accustomed to intimate physical contact; it felt like an almost guilty luxury, thinking of those whom he could no longer touch, but it felt like an anchor to humanity as well.
Summary: Being a hero doesn’t really matter, when it’s always been an illusion.
A/N: Just in under the wire! The others I owe will appear when my laptop decides that it wants to acknowledge the existence of the internet again.
The water of the lake was cold against his bare skin, but Kadaj was warm against him as they wound around each other. It was strange to have someone touching him with only thoughts of pleasure in mind. The silver-haired man-boy had shown no expression other than sadness and sympathy at the darkness staining his left arm as they’d pulled each other’s clothes off to enter the water together. Neither of them was accustomed to intimate physical contact; it felt like an almost guilty luxury, thinking of those whom he could no longer touch, but it felt like an anchor to humanity as well.
“I’ll help you,” he’d whispered, and Cloud let everything else go without much regret at all. He had failed almost everyone he had loved already – why not just continue the trend and fail the rest of them? So he had abandoned Edge and Gaia to join his brothers, who didn’t care if he was a failure or useless. To them, he was nothing more than their brother.
That was an acceptance he’d never really felt before. Everyone else had always wanted him to be something, to be some one; usually they expected him to be the hero, and he always wondered how long it would take them to realize that he wasn’t, that he couldn’t be. Now he wondered how long it would take before they realized he’d given up and left them all behind.
“Here,” Kadaj said, lowering his head to brush his lips tenderly across the worst of the infection on Cloud’s arm, causing the pain to flare momentarily. “You don’t have to fight it any longer, Big Brother. It’s okay to just give in, because we’ll take care of you.” Soon Cloud felt like his arm was burning from the inside out, his breath shuddering and shaking inside of his chest.
“It hurts,” he said, biting back a moan of pain. Kadaj pressed himself closer, so they were connected skin-to-skin from neck to toe, and then he was kissing the blond to complete the connection, even as they lost their footing and tumbled under the water’s surface. It didn’t matter, and the cold of the water didn’t seem to do anything for the burning in his arm, until darkness spread from Kadaj’s body to taint the water. Then slowly, so slowly, the fire eased to bearable levels, and then faded entirely, until he didn’t feel cold or hot at all.
When they surfaced and parted for air, Cloud opened newly-green eyes to look up at his brother, and then bowed his head to rest it upon the thin chest.
“Don’t worry, Big Brother.” Slim fingers ran through wet silver hair. “You have us now. We just have to find Mother, and then everything will be okay, forever. We’ll all be together, forever.”
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