Cassie Blake (evilprincess) wrote in zombieslogs, @ 2013-12-02 22:31:00 |
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Entry tags: | bonnie bennett, cassie blake |
Who: Cassie and Bonnie
What: If you can't beat 'em, join 'em
When: Nowish
Where: Cassie's apartment in the projects
Warnings: Shouldn't be any
Bonnie didn’t know what she was doing. Everyone was in chaos at the prison, greeting their loved ones as they returned from death’s doorstep. Everyone was celebrating in their own ways but there was nothing for Bonnie and her friends to celebrate. How cruel a fate that she should kill her own best friend to cure a disease that was literally only days away from being obliterated. Caroline died for nothing and worse yet, she couldn’t even move on the way that Matt had. She was still here, still a ghost. Whatever Bonnie had done to her had kept her here. It couldn’t possibly be a coincidence that she couldn’t leave the nemeton when she came back.
She couldn’t take another day of Elena’s sad dark eyes or Jeremy’s sympathetic looks. She couldn’t stand to watch their leaders flounder around because they had lost two of their strongest members in one fell swoop. Bonnie hadn’t just killed Caroline, she had wounded the prison deeply. The place she had called home for over a year would have to heal from the damage that Bonnie had done with her own dark magic.
She needed a break and she signed herself out next to some gibberish that looked like it could be anyone’s signature. Stuffing her hands into her coat she braced herself against the cold rain that was currently soaking Everett. Times like these, Bonnie missed Mystic Falls. Virginia was warm compared to this. The dark little witch didn’t stop until she was standing in front of Cassie’s door. She really hoped Faye wasn’t home, she wasn’t Bonnie’s favorite witch but she would put up with her if she was there.
She was glad when a familiar blonde head poked her way out through the door. Bonnie tried not to cry but she couldn’t help it, instantly tears sprung to her eyes. “I killed Caroline.” It wasn’t a secret. Everyone knew at this point but Bonnie had to say it out loud to her little sister.
Cassie wasn’t sure who she was expecting on the other side of the door but it wasn’t who was standing there. Sobbing. She had been keeping her distance from Bonnie because she saw how unresponsive she was on the net, she needed time. She’d lost enough in her life to know that sometimes death just took time and she pulled Bonnie in out of the rain and wrapped her arms around her.
“I’m so sorry, Bonnie.” She said quietly as she held onto her a bit longer before tugging her toward her room. She didn’t want Faye or Diana to come nosing around right now because it wasn’t like they all hadn’t done horrible things. She didn’t want Faye to say anything that would upset Bonnie because with all four of them in one space? It was a time bomb waiting to go off and lately Faye and Diana had been so secretive. Leaving her out of everything and Bonnie was there for her, she would be here for her now.
“I know you’d never deliberately hurt Caroline…” She said as they sat on the edge of her bed and she put her arm back around Bonnie. She could feel the grief and how distraught she was. Having power like this wasn’t an easy thing and she understood that, there would be no judgment here. She knew that the spell was done in conjunction with the virus going around and that Bonnie had tried to cure her friend. “What happened? What went wrong? Most importantly, are you okay?”
“No.” Bonnie shook her head, more tears spilling onto her cheek. “How can I be okay? Caroline is dead. Because of me. It’s even worse. I think whatever that spell did, kept her here. She’s a ghost now, she didn’t even move on.” Move on where? Bonnie didn’t know but she liked to think it was peaceful and nice there. And if it was nice and peaceful than Caroline should be there instead of stuck and useless. Dead but not dead. A terrible tease and something that Bonnie was solely responsible for.
“I don’t know. The spell worked. She was cured. I saw her eyes at the end. Before… before she died. Her eyes were white. I cured her, it just… the spell killed her. I thought I could handle it, I thought I could keep everything in balance.” Bonnie turned her head slowly to look in Cassie’s direction. “I couldn’t control it. It was like I wasn’t even me anymore. I was something else. Dark magic.”
Cassie couldn’t help the shiver that ran down her spine as Bonnie explained how she didn’t feel herself, just the magic. She knew that feeling all too well but she had always had someone there to pull her back from going too far. Things were complete chaos with the virus running rampant through Everett, the decision had to be last minute. There was no way Bonnie would try to do something so huge without letting her know. It didn’t change the fact that Caroline was dead.
“I know what you’re talking about, that feeling. I wish I had been there with you, please tell me that someone was at least there with you.” She looked at her and hoped like hell someone had been there and that she hadn’t been left alone long with the body of her dead friend. She held her a little tighter and a little closer as they just sat there. She couldn’t take away the sadness that was going to fill Bonnie but she had to do something to make her feel it less.
“Spells like that, and I’m guessing it was pretty big, if you aren’t careful they’ll take you over.” She remembered Diana’s harsh words and quickly pushed them away. She had to pull Bonnie up out of this, they had to figure a way to help Caroline cross over, there had to be something they could do. “You couldn’t have expected what happened to have happened and I’m sorry that Caroline is gone, I know how close you were.”
“No. You don’t.” Bonnie’s voice wasn’t angry or hard it was just simple and matter of fact. Cassie had no idea how close they were. Nobody did. They were best friends. Caroline was the person she could count on for anything. Of course, she loved Elena and Matt too and they were best friends but it was different with Caroline. Caroline was always her constant, always there.
“Big spells like that will take you over. I can do big spells I just have to figure out how to stay tethered here so I don’t lose myself.” Bonnie was thinking out loud again as she tilted her head up. With a flick of her hand Cassie’s Book of Shadows was plucked from it’s hiding place and sitting on Bonnie’s lap. She began to flip through it. “Between your book, Diana’s book and my grimoire we might be able to pull this off.” Why hadn’t she thought about this before? It had been where she had automatically gone to when Matt died. They told her not to but she did anyway and that spell had nearly sucked her right into the earth to disappear forever. She hadn’t even made it very far into that spell before she had retreated out of fear. But for this spell, she had something tying her here, letting her borrow power. Her sisters. Why hadn’t she thought of this before. “I can bring Caroline back.”
Her eyes widened when Bonnie announced she could bring Caroline back. She turned her attention to her a little more and just looked at her. She wasn’t being serious, right? You couldn’t just bring someone back from the dead without major consequences and who knew what those would be. Caroline was already dead and Cassie didn’t want to lose Bonnie or any of her other siblings. They may not always get along or agree but they were family.
“What do you mean you can bring Caroline back?” She was careful with her words because she knew that Bonnie was upset, she could just be rambling. It just didn’t feel like rambling as she kept her eyes on Bonnie who was flipping through her book. She set her hand on the book and Bonnie looked at her. “Bonnie you can’t just bring people back from the dead, that’s not how it works. Look what just happened, Caroline is dead because of magic. Now you want to bring her back with it?”
“Maybe we could find a way to help her cross over but … bringing her back? I don’t know if that’s such a good idea, I know you miss her and love her, I do. I just don’t think this will make it right.” She carefully pulled her hand back from the book after she was done speaking hoping that maybe Bonnie heard some of it. If anything happened to Faye or Diana would she do the same? Would she want them back?
“That’s not good enough,” Bonnie said in a dark voice. It wasn’t good enough to simply find a spell to help guide Caroline’s soul into the after life. Maybe the after life wasn’t even all that great. Why settle for making Caroline’s spirit move on when she could bring Caroline back. She was sure of it. “We have the power, Cassie. You and me, Diana. We’re Blackwells.” Bonnie held her hand out palm up to show the Balcoin mark on her hand. It was completely identical to the one Cassie had on her hand. Diana had one as well.
“You’re my blood. We all have Balcoin blood.” She shared blood with Malachi too. They were something like distant cousins. Cassie McBain hadn’t been too clear on that during her visit several months ago. Bonnie had begun to think of Malachi as a cousin. But distant cousins was not as powerful as a trifecta of powerful sisters. Three people was plenty of power to balance a spell. Bonnie wouldn’t have to do it all on her own. Diana and Cassie would keep her from going over the edge.
“There’s part of a spell here.” She pointed at the open page of Cassie’s spellbook. “It’s only a part but it’s a summoning spell. To summon the dead. All we have to do is find the other parts of the spell and we can bring her back!”
Cassie felt like her head was going to explode. A spell to summon the dead? Bonnie clearly wasn’t thinking straight and Cassie had to figure a way to pull her back in without making her more upset. She lost someone very close to her and Cassie got that, she really did get it, but she had never thought about bringing her mom back after she died. She didn’t know anything about her having magic then but she wasn’t sure she’d bring her back.
“Balcoin blood or not, do you really want to do a spell to summon the dead? Don’t we have enough of those around trying to eat us?” She looked at her with a hopeful look but Bonnie just gave her a glance before she returned her eyes back to the spell. Cassie glanced over her shoulder as they read it, it didn’t sound like something they should be doing. She wasn’t sure she should be the one telling Bonnie that bringing back her friend from the dead was a bad idea.
“I know we have power, I know we’re blood, but we have to think about this, Bonnie. We have to think it all the way through, all the way to whatever is going to happen because of this. What if someone else dies? What if it kills you or someone else in the prison? Me or Diana?” She was starting to get the vibe that there was no talking Bonnie out of this. She was afraid that it was going to come down to letting her do “alone or being there with her to make sure nothing happens.
“I won’t let anything happen to you or Diana,” Bonnie said in a clipped tone. She wouldn’t risk her sisters like that. While it was possible that she might die, she accepted that. She couldn’t accept sacrificing a sister even if it was for Caroline. Caroline wouldn’t want that anyway. “You’re right. I shouldn’t risk the two of you. But I have to have this spell, Cassie. It’s only the first part which means there are others parts. Maybe in Diana’s book. Do you know where she keeps it?” She was disappointed when she saw Cassie shake her blonde head. “I’ll come back for it when she’s here. Maybe there’s something in my grimoire too. I can find the other parts I know I can.”
Bonnie’s own spirit lifted for the first time in what seemed like days. That was until she turned and saw the look on Cassie’s face. She didn’t look very happy and Bonnie understood perfectly why. “I know that you’re worried, that a spell like this will be too big for just me. Maybe you’re right. But I have to try, Cassie. I’ll hate myself forever if I don’t at least try. I have to try. I know it’s risky but I don’t care.”
“I care though, Bonnie. I just found you and would your friend really want this? Would she want you to possibly do something that could kill you too? Or me, or Diana? You said it yourself Bonnie, you said you couldn’t control yourself.” She didn’t want to feel like she was lecturing her but she couldn’t believe that she was so willing to try to do a spell to summon someone who was dead without thinking of the consequence.
“I know that you miss her, I know that you have to feel pretty horrible right now. I know how it feels to lose someone you love and now you do too. Why would you try and do a spell that would cause more loss?” She could see that Bonnie was eased by the thought of trying to mash together a spell from all three of their books. She wasn’t sure how she felt about that but she was still clinging to this just being a stage of Bonnie’s grief. She knew she was being stupid.
“I don’t know that Diana would help us, she’s… been busy with Faye.” She tried her best to keep the resentment from her tone but she’d been so isolated from the two of them it was like living with ghosts. She couldn’t get close enough to find out what was going on but it was very obvious something was going on. “We couldn’t do something like this with just you and I. We shouldn’t do something like this, I just… I don’t want to lose you. I know Diana probably cares enough right now to feel that way too.”
Bonnie arched an eyebrow in Cassie’s direction. “I think we both know that Diana cares about a lot of things but I am not on that list.” She was just being honest. Bonnie and Diana weren’t close, had never been close. Diana was always making decisions that Bonnie didn’t approve of. Just a few weeks ago Diana had been out in the woods encouraging a raged out Ethan Rayne to set the damn forest on fire. If Bonnie hadn’t stepped in they easily could have destroyed the town together.
Cassie was on that list though and Bonnie figured that Cassie was far enough up on that list so that Bonnie ranked too, if only second handedly. She sighed and tore the page out of Cassie’s book. If she wouldn’t give it to her, Bonnie would just take it. “I’m doing this with or without you,” she said. She stood up and started walking through the apartment, only stopping when Cassie ducked past Bonnie in the hallway to get between Bonnie and the door.
Bonnie stopped short and gave Cassie an annoyed look. “You know you can’t stop me.”
Things were getting out of hand very quickly and Cassie could feel herself getting anxious. She didn’t want anything to happen to Bonnie so when she shoved herself between her and the door? She knew it was the truth that she couldn’t stop her from doing this. Nobody could and she had a feeling with the way Bonnie was acting right now, she wouldn’t let anyone stop her.
“I know I can’t stop you, Bonnie.” She finally said and tipped her chin up at her and looked at her seriously. She didn’t want to let Bonnie out of her sight right now because she’d probably go back to the prison and try to do this now. Half cocked. She knew that her and Diana didn’t get along but they were still family and surely if Caroline meant this much to Bonnie, so did Cassie and Diana. Maybe they could both get her to listen.
“I’m just asking that you don’t do anything without me.” She finally felt her resolve in preventing Bonnie from doing this spell slip away. She let her reservations slip to the side though because, while Bonnie thought she was on to something, she had shown up on her doorstep in tears. “Stay a while longer, you can tell me more about Caroline. I feel like if she was so important to you, maybe I should know more too.”
“I know what you’re doing. You’re stalling.” Bonnie gave Cassie a serious look. She was doing exactly what Bonnie would have done. Diana and Cassie may have known each other longer but Cassie and Bonnie had a unique bond. Bonnie felt more protective of this little sister than she did
of the other one she barely ever saw. “You don’t have to make up excuses to hang out with me but promise me that you’ll at least help me find the other parts of the spell. It’s up to you and Diana if you want to help me do the ritual. I wouldn’t hold it against you either way.”
She sighed and took a step towards Cassie. “Do you have anything to drink? We could just hang out for a little while.” She was so single minded right now she had to remind herself to take the time for the people that were still in her life, the ones that weren’t dead. It was difficult and her mind kept straying to Caroline anxiously but she tried to focus on the tiny blonde who was making her tea. Bonnie sat down at the kitchen table and stuffed the pages of Cassie’s Book of Shadows into her bag.
“So what have you been up to?” she asked.
Cassie put the kettle on the stove and took down two cups and grabbed two tea bags as Bonnie sat at the table. She hated that she thought she was stalling her and making excuses to hang out, but with how Bonnie was right now? She didn’t want her to leave just yet, just in case. She realized that she was going to have to help her. If she didn’t Bonnie could actually probably kill herself doing a spell like this.
“Well, first, I’m not making up excuses to hang out with you. You know I like hanging out with you I’m just, I’m just worried.” She set a cup down in front of Bonnie and sat across from her at the table. The warmth of the cup was inviting and she focused on that for a moment. “I haven’t been up to anything really, reading through my book and spending most of my days in my room. Something is going on with Faye and Diana and I don’t know what it is, they’re shutting me out.”
She took a sip from her cup and frowned at the torn pages from her book. She knew she would get them back and she also knew she wouldn’t let Bonnie take her book with her. It was hers and she had to protect it which meant knowing where it was at all times. “I’ll figure out what it is it’s just annoying as hell. How did you and Caroline meet? I feel like you have this entire other life, that I just have little bits of, and I should know more.”
“Me and Caroline have known each other forever. Since we were kids,” Bonnie said. “She’s one of my oldest friends but we all grew up together. Me and Caroline, Elena and Matt. Jeremy.” Of course back then Jeremy had been the annoying kid brother of her best friend. Now Jeremy was her boyfriend and he had really grown into himself. She loved him so much and her heart beat regret as she sipped her tea. This spell could kill her and Jeremy… she had to make sure that everything was settled with Jeremy before she left.
She took another drink from her mug. “What do you think’s going on with Faye and Diana. They’re acting stranger than normal?” It was no secret that Bonnie didn’t approve of what most of Faye and Diana did. The two of them thought that they could do whatever they wanted and there would be no consequences. Yet, how was Bonnie to take such a high ground with them? To her knowledge neither one of them had ever killed anybody.
“If you count Faye storming into Diana’s room in the middle of the night demanding to know what the hell was that as acting stranger than normal? Then yes, they’ve been very much stranger than normal.” She rolled the liquid around in her cup as she stared down into it. Her mind went to a tea leaf reading book she had in her room and she made a mental note to look at both cups later.
“Faye and Diana were my Elena, Caroline and Matt. Jeremy too I guess, though none of us had siblings growing up.” She smiled across the table at Bonnie and was relieved to get a warm smile back. Out of the four of them it was her and Bonnie that had the easiest time bonding, that was why she was going to help her. She couldn’t let her go into this blindly and possibly hurt herself or worse, then she’d never forgive herself. She could see a vicious cycle of trying to summon the dead repeating itself in her mind.
“Now I just have you really with how they are right now, which is why I’m going to help you. I don’t agree with it Bonnie, I’m sorry I don’t, but I can’t let you do something like this by yourself.” She reached across the table and set her hand on Bonnie’s arm. She was her family, her blood, and she would make sure to keep her safe as much as she possibly could. “Maybe I’ll even come to the prison to get away from the creepers in my own house. It’d be nice to get out of here for a while actually.”