She didn't think that it was reckless at the time, but he was right about vengeance. She'd wanted it so badly after the crimes he'd committed against those in town but especially for the crimes against her people. The Moroi and dhampir bodies that were in that bunker and lives that she'd failed to protect. She and Rose had seen it with their own eyes and it had driven her to be determined to find the mole and expose them. She should have waited or simply minded her own business. The others would have been able to handle it. She'd...
She'd killed Vera.
"Stop," she whispered through her tears, but the fight was being drained out of her. More began to fall and she wasn't trying to stop them any longer. "I don't want them to die for me. Rose is stronger than the bullet. She came back. She can protect Jill and the others."
Yes. Her initial thought about physical pain was a simple yes, but she didn't voice it. She didn't have to. He knew.
She covered her face with her hands and desperately tried to block him out. "Please just stop."