Jack
Oh, who's joking? I know what to look for. I'm a pilot, and I'm good with my hands. ;)
...That's not what I meant at all, Jack. I know I have to move on. It's just that I do this every time, after a relationship ends I rebound too fast and get crushes on men I usually shouldn't have crushes on. (Usually I'm a bad judge of character in the dating world.) I don't want anyone to be a rebound, though. I worried about that for awhile with Jamie, actually, cause I met him right around the time my engagement got broken. I know myself too well and know I do this.
I only mentioned Jamie cause I guess I'm... surprised? That I'm able to flirt this much with someone and not feel as guilty as I thought I might. He makes me... not forget, but you know what I mean. It's comfortable and not forced at all and maybe I'm getting my hopes up where I shouldn't. It just felt so good to do that again, even if nothing happens. Maybe I should feel more guilty than I do. But he makes me feel like everything's gonna be okay. Sort of. Did I really just say that? I barely know him. See, and then I'll do this thing where I get scared off or freak out and I'll back away. Two steps forward, one step backward. Oh well. Happens every time.
Oh, Jack. I'm teasing. I'm completely teasing you. I'm losing my touch over these stupid boards. I know you wouldn't ever do that. That's why I love you.