Alixandr Savage should be mental by now. (savagelaw) wrote in wished,
It was still ingrained in him to look for the little details. He couldn’t help but notice the hitch in her breath when he touched her...he was reading the look in her eyes like it was the most important thing that he would ever do. And that subtle grip on his hand...the one that reassured him she wanted to be there, that she maybe wasn’t going to bolt like he feared she might, those were the things that made the difference. It was only then that he allowed himself to think at all that she might not leave.
“I know...I looked for you,” he admitted, his voice a little rough with the emotion of the entire ordeal. But it was the fact that she said she was back for good that allowed him to continue standing there, to keep his composure. She’d gone somewhere, but she was finally back...she was going to stay in England. Would she stay with him? He wanted to know so badly that he could hardly stand it. Did she still love him, or had time removed him to a mere memory...was he just that guy from her past now?
She still did crazy things to his heart just by standing there. She was so close, and yet he didn’t feel like she was close enough, “I think about you every day...I had no idea where you were or what had happened. I’ve missed you so much it bloody hurts. After the war was over...” he sighed, trying to decide whether he should say he had hoped she’d come back, or to just answer her question. He decided on the latter, “I left the Auror division. I’m a lawyer now...finished up qualifications a few years ago. I guess you could say I’ve been doing well...”
Except where the part that he felt like he was missing his heart the whole time. For a while, Alix wasn’t even certain he could feel anything anymore. Only his friends and family had kept him above total despair sometimes, “Where did you go, Trish?...” he left the question hanging in the air, hoping she would answer to him why she didn’t come back as well...he wanted to know, but he hardly dared to ask.