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Patricia Stimpson ([info]trishstimpson) wrote in [info]wished,
@ 2010-09-21 20:10:00

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Entry tags:!2003: 09, !incomplete, alixandr savage, patricia stimpson

Who: Alixandr Savage and Patricia Stimpson
When: this early evening
Where: Diagon Alley near the WWW
What: Random run in makes for a surprise reunion.
Rating: TBD
Open/Closed: closed

Most women enjoyed shopping and Trish did to a certain extent. Today though she wasn't enjoying it. She didn't have anything she needed magically any more. All her old robes were full of holes. Her potion supplies ruined. Her books outdated. She needed to go on a major shopping spree and so she'd started in the afternoon and the day wore on and on and she was making a dent in her considerable list of needed items. She was pleased that there were a number of items she could have owled home, such as all her potion supplies. She certainly didn't want to be carrying them around.

Now though her night was wrapping up and there was one more store she wanted to check out. She'd heard before she'd left that the Weasley twins had opened a joke shop. And of course she'd heard quite a lot of talk about it as she'd traversed Diagon Alley today. She had to check it out. What sort of Gryffindor alumni would she be if she didn't check out a store owned by two of the most famous pranksters from her old house? And it could have the potential to let her meet up with old friends, friends she needed to reconnect with. Part of her wished she'd run into him, but that wasn't likely to happen.

Was he still an Auror? Was he successful? Had he... had he even survived the war? The thought that he hadn't caused a pang of pain to shoot through her chest that made her short of breath. Of course she pushed that away. Quentin had told her to talk to him. He had to be alive for her to do that, right? He would have told her differently if he wasn't, right? There was no way he'd have been cruel enough to mean speak to a ghost or a headstone. No. Alix was alive. Alive and well and probably deliriously happy without her. And that is what she deserved.

Of course she was so lost in thought that as she neared the shop she didn't see the man that was standing in front of it. She did, however, notice him just as she slammed into him, jarring them both and causing her to drop her bags full of parchment, quills and ink all over the ground.

"Oh gosh, I'm so sorry," she cried out, not even looking at him. She simply dropped into a crouch quickly, head ducked down and hair falling in front of her face as she started gathering her items again, tsking under her breath as she found a cracked inkwell. "My favorite ink... I should have been watching! I was so caught up in my own thoughts."



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[info]savagelaw
2010-09-22 01:14 am UTC (link)
Things had gotten so complicated in his life. Alix didn’t often talk much about the love that he’d lost anymore, but he found himself speaking about it that day. He couldn’t help but hope that there was some way that she was still out there. Even if she wasn’t with him...he hoped that she was happy somewhere. As much as it hurt him to think about the possibility that she was with someone else, he just wished he knew she was alive. To take his mind off of it, he had gone into the WWW in hopes of getting some inspiration for one of his cases.

Defending George and Fred Weasley wasn’t easy, but it was a lot more fun than being an Auror. It took his mind off of the death that he saw in the war. He’d been changed irrevocably by what he saw, but his determination to still live his life as fully and happily as he could had kept him sane. He didn’t leave the store with anything other than a few ideas. But that seemed to be rather fortunate, because only a few moments after he exited the store, someone ran directly into him. It wasn’t enough to put him completely off balance, but enough to shock him.

Before he could really react, she was apologizing and already picking up the things that she’d dropped. The voice was something like a blast from the past, but as he looked down at her...the hair was different, and he couldn’t really see her face, “It’s fine,” he said, almost sounding a bit far away, his Scottish accent heavy.

With a deft swish of his wand, the cracked inkwell was repaired, and whatever ink was salvageable was contained. He couldn’t help but notice that it was the same ink Trish used to use, “I wasn’t paying attention either. No harm done, except perhaps to your ink...lovely lavender, isn’t it?” he said as he crouched down there beside her, trying to help her gather up her materials. Admitting to knowing the name of the ink was hardly something most men would fess up to, but he’d teased Trish about it years ago. He refused to let himself hope that this was Trish. He’d already seen two look-a-likes this week. He wasn’t quite sure he could handle a third...even if they did use the same ink. His heart constricted...he missed her so damn much.

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[info]trishstimpson
2010-09-22 01:43 am UTC (link)
It was nice to hear an accent that wasn't strictly British or Australian. It was odd to realize just how much she'd missed it. And the voice... It reminded her of him. Couldn't be him though. That'd just be too lucky for her. She certainly didn't deserve such like. It was nice to fantasize though. She had the pleasant thought that she'd tilt her head up and smile and there he'd be. She pushed such thoughts out of her mind though. It was better to not get lost in her mind again because that was how she'd ended up in this mess after all.

When the inkwell repaired she smiled, clutching it in her hand happily. This was her favorite ink. She loved writing with this ink. She remembered all the time she wrote notes and letters to Alix with this ink and how he'd tease her about it. She didn't mind though because she knew he didn't mean it. She was certain he liked those notes as much as she enjoyed writing them. She used to leave them for him all the time.

His voice though penetrated her thoughts again. It was so painfully familiar. And he knew the name of the ink? That was highly unusual, especially for a male. She stuffed the ink back in her bag, grabbing the last of her things and hastily pushing it in. Her eyes closed and she took a deep breath in and slowly released it before letting her eyes open as she tilted her head back and looked up. "Thank you for your help."

At about that time she got a good look at him and her eyes widened as they latched on to him. No, no, no, no. It couldn't be. He couldn't be here. She couldn't have found him already. She had a week! A week to make herself ready for their first meeting where she'd grovel and have a pretty speech all prepared and be ready for him to tell her he hated her! He couldn't be in front of her now!

"I, uh, I mean, that is, er," she couldn't seem to get a sentence out now. She was starring. He was going to think she was insane. Maybe he wouldn't recognize her? "Lovely lavender, yeah. Um, hi. No, I mean, that is... Shutting up now."

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[info]savagelaw
2010-09-22 02:04 am UTC (link)
He had more than one box of letters that Trish had written him still stowed away. Most of them were well worn from the times that he’d read them since. At first, they had been his vice...the thing that he clung to when he couldn’t take her absence. There were other things...pictures...a shirt of his that smelled like her, but the shirt had lost it’s comfort and sometimes when he wondered whether she was still alive or not, he couldn’t bear to look at the pictures. But her words were always the same...always hers and always with him. There was still a photo of them in his wallet...happily wrapped up in an embrace, with her scrawl on the back...three simple words.

“It’s no problem at all,” he said at her thanks, a bit of a smile in his voice. He steeled himself when he looked at her. He was prepared to be disappointed...but the resemblance was so striking that he found himself wanting to sit there on the street rather than just crouch. Her hair was a different color...it wasn’t the same length and didn’t have the same curl, but her lips were made of the same sweet curves, and her eyes of the same bits of the ocean...they always had been able to captivate him.

Even when she started speaking, all he could do was stare into those blue eyes that had haunted him for years...blue eyes he never thought he’d see again. He couldn’t help but think that her stuttering sentence was adorable...that made the thought that this really was Trish solidify. Why would anyone else that looked so similar to her have that kind of reaction to him?

He almost didn’t trust himself to be seeing her correctly. Alix had seen her everywhere he went for years since her disappearance, “Trish?” he said softly, her familiar name escaping him in a breath that he wasn’t sure he meant to utter. He knew he sounded disbelieving, but he knew it...knew with everything in him that this was her there in front of him.

“Good Godric...you’re alive...I thought...bloody hell. It’s really you,” He couldn’t seem to control his thoughts either. But there was a light in his eyes that hadn’t been there before. This...he wasn’t even sure it was real. He wanted to pinch himself to ensure it wasn’t a dream, but he wondered if that would be rude.

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[info]trishstimpson
2010-09-22 02:19 am UTC (link)
The starring was mutual it seemed. Good. That definitely meant that he wouldn't take offense to it. She didn't want him to take offense. Not yet. This was too good. Too surreal. She wanted it to remain that way for just a moment later. She just wanted to take him in. She had the strongest urge to reach out and run her hand along his jaw and up through his hair in a familiar move she'd done dozens of times when they were together. She ached to just lean a little closer and take a deep breath and refamiliarize herself with his scent, a scent she never truly forgot.

Merlin she wasn't going to cry. She wasn't! She couldn't. Not here, crouched in front of the WWW in the crowded walk way of Diagon Alley. She had to keep it together. Well as together as she was capable of. This was Alix. It had to be. He couldn't be anyone else. He was here and he was whole and he was just as perfect as he'd always been. He'd fixed her inkwell in a sweet gesture just like he'd have done all those years ago. And he was in front of her still. He hadn't fled yet. He wasn't screaming yet.

"I..." She bit her lips and worried it for a moment before releasing it and giving him a slow, shaky smile. "Alix. I... Yes." Merlin she couldn't even string two words together. She felt like a primary school girl with a crush. It was mortifying and invigorating all at once. She needed to do something though, move, talk, something. Her ankles and balls of her feet were starting to hurt from being crouched so long. Moving though wasn't high on her list of things she wanted to do. What if she stood up and he disappeared like a phantom? A wisp of a memory that never truly existed.

"You're here. Really here?" The end came out as a question though she hadn't meant it to. The hand clutched her bag closer to herself in an unconscious gesture, her eyes still completely glued on him. "I just, that is... Well I should probably, but, uh..." Her free hand reached out toward him, toward his face, and aborted part way through, hovering in front of her uncertainly.

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[info]savagelaw
2010-09-22 02:42 am UTC (link)
When she confirmed...when she said his name, he felt like his heart was going to fly right out of his chest. This was the girl that had captivated him heart and soul and then disappeared without a trace...she was the one that he’d wanted so much to see for so long. He had no anger in him for what had happened. He believed that she had gone fearing for her life, but he had always been confused about why she hadn’t said anything...why hadn’t she asked him to come with her? For a time, he had even worried that she had been snatched, but that was so painful to think about that he couldn’t bear it.

Still, time wore on, and when she never came home, he feared the worst. He nodded softly to reassure her that he was there, he was real...he didn’t really know what she was trying to say, but he was terrified that she was going to turn on her heel and run. Maybe she never had wanted him to know that she was still out there somewhere...maybe she wanted him to leave her alone. But the way that she reached out towards him was almost like she was going to touch him. When she stopped, he met her hand half-way, and grasped it tightly in his own as he rose to his feet, pulling her up to stand with him.

He didn’t dare let go of her hand...he didn’t want to. There was a fierce determination in his eyes, now that he knew she really wasn’t just a figment of his imagination. He couldn’t let her go...not without knowing. Slowly, with his free hand, he reached up to brush a little of her hair back...it was different and yet the same. The gesture was so painfully familiar that he didn’t dare think about what would happen later if she turned from him and walked out of his life all over again.

“I’ve always been right here...” he said softly. Of course, he was referring to England, to where they were together...not that particular spot. All of his unasked questions were right there in his eyes. He wanted to know what happened...he wanted to know why, “I never thought I’d see you again, Trish...I didn’t dare to hope for it.”

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[info]trishstimpson
2010-09-22 03:02 am UTC (link)
He was touching her, grasping her hand in his own and she stood fluidly when he pulled her up. And when her hand lifted and brushed her hair back her breath hitched in a little sob and she managed to choke it down just barely. The move was so familiar and touching and just *so* much like it had always been between them. It was hard. Especially when she'd thought back to conversations she'd had earlier in the day. He had to be so angry with her and she wasn't certain she was ready for that pain.

She owed him though. Owed him the explanations she'd never given him. It hadn't been fair of her to do what she'd done. She had hated herself then for doing it and she still hated herself now for it. Would he understand at least a little? She thought he would. Understanding didn't mean forgiving though and that was what she desperately hoped for even if she didn't deserve it. She'd tell him still, tell him everything he wanted to know.

But she still couldn't bring herself to let go of his hand knowing this. If anything her hand tightened around his, a reassurance despite the one he'd already given her. "I haven't. But I'm back. For good." And she was. She couldn't leave again, despite teasing to Quentin she would. Her heart would break if he didn't want her around, wanted nothing to do with her. She couldn't leave again though. She'd stay and she'd bug their friends for details about him, make sure he stayed happy.

"Merlin, Alix," she took a deep breath and took a step forward, toward him. Had he been a stranger she'd have been invading his personal space. Instead she was just putting herself into a space she'd used to occupy in the past. "I've missed you. So much. I can't even... Decisions were made so fast and then... God. How have you been?" She wasn't entirely sure she was making sense.

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[info]savagelaw
2010-09-22 03:35 am UTC (link)
It was still ingrained in him to look for the little details. He couldn’t help but notice the hitch in her breath when he touched her...he was reading the look in her eyes like it was the most important thing that he would ever do. And that subtle grip on his hand...the one that reassured him she wanted to be there, that she maybe wasn’t going to bolt like he feared she might, those were the things that made the difference. It was only then that he allowed himself to think at all that she might not leave.

“I know...I looked for you,” he admitted, his voice a little rough with the emotion of the entire ordeal. But it was the fact that she said she was back for good that allowed him to continue standing there, to keep his composure. She’d gone somewhere, but she was finally back...she was going to stay in England. Would she stay with him? He wanted to know so badly that he could hardly stand it. Did she still love him, or had time removed him to a mere memory...was he just that guy from her past now?

She still did crazy things to his heart just by standing there. She was so close, and yet he didn’t feel like she was close enough, “I think about you every day...I had no idea where you were or what had happened. I’ve missed you so much it bloody hurts. After the war was over...” he sighed, trying to decide whether he should say he had hoped she’d come back, or to just answer her question. He decided on the latter, “I left the Auror division. I’m a lawyer now...finished up qualifications a few years ago. I guess you could say I’ve been doing well...”

Except where the part that he felt like he was missing his heart the whole time. For a while, Alix wasn’t even certain he could feel anything anymore. Only his friends and family had kept him above total despair sometimes, “Where did you go, Trish?...” he left the question hanging in the air, hoping she would answer to him why she didn’t come back as well...he wanted to know, but he hardly dared to ask.

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[info]trishstimpson
2010-09-22 03:53 am UTC (link)
Trish could probably spend all day simply gazing at Alix. She felt like she could simply sit quietly and gaze and just be so giddily happy she wouldn't know what to do with herself. She didn't know what to do with herself now for that matter. She just wanted to stand here with him and block traffic and just be with him because they were together again. For now at least things were right. The world made sense. She didn't want it to all come crashing down. She was certain it would when the explanations started. Nothing could excuse what she'd done. How she had to have hurt him. How she hadn't been in contact with him. There was a word for the type of woman she was and it wasn't a pleasant one.

"You... You looked for me?" The thought sent her heart soaring and plummeting all in one go. The fact he cared enough to look did nothing but make her feelings for him flare all the higher. But the same fact made her betrayal hurt that much more. How had he felt? She couldn't imagine it had been good or easy on him. They'd both been too wrapped up in each other for it to have been easy. That just firmed her resolve that she had to tell him. He was good and kind and sweet and utterly deserving of the truth from her, to know where she'd gone and why. Even if what she feared his reaction might be would hurt.

The bags in her hand were forgotten and her grip on them loosened and they crashed to the ground. The robes hit first, cushioning the fall of her ink and miscellaneous items and it all stayed in the bag this time. She didn't even notice. Instead she stepped the last step closer and wrapped her now free arm around his waist and pulled herself close to him in a hug, breathing his scent in deeply like she'd wanted to when she'd realized who he was. Merlin she'd missed this. The feel of him, the smell of him, his presence. "I wanted to... You have to..." She couldn't seem to choke the words out.

"A lawyer?" She should probably move away, but she couldn't bring herself to. She held on tighter instead. "You always did have a way with words. Quite convincing." A better way with words then she was having now. Her eyes closed again and she just soaked in his presence, the very essence that was Alix. She knew that the hard explanations were going to start now and she was putting it off for as long as she could. "I bet you win all your cases." She was certain that he'd always succeed at anything he did.

"Australia. I just...," she took a deep breath, stealing herself. "Things were getting so bad here. I heard things. Things that set me on edge. And people were giving me these looks and I just knew I had to go and go quick. I had to cut ties and just disappear." And it had been so hard and so easy at the same time. Leaving had been the hardest, but it had been surprisingly easy to pick the place and set up a new identity for herself. "I had wanted... to take you with me. But there were so many corrupt Aurors and things came to a head so fast..." And she was ashamed of the fact that she'd allowed her fear to drive her away, away from him.

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[info]savagelaw
2010-09-22 04:22 am UTC (link)
He was actually mildly surprised that she didn’t think he had looked for her. He had looked every damn day for years...and then he’d given into the thought that maybe she was no where he could find her...or that she just didn’t want to be found. He still looked though...in his daily life. And even when she wasn’t there, he saw her everywhere, “Of course I did. How could I not?” he has loved her since he first set eyes on her...even now, he knew that to be true. He had never wanted anyone else...Alix had assumed that he’d just live out the rest of his life knowing that once upon a time, he had something really special. Now, she was standing there with him again.

It was all too natural to have her standing there with him. When she stepped into his arms, he immediately wrapped his free arm around her to hold her tightly, and when he was sure she wasn’t going to step away, he let to of her hand and held her close with both of his arms...it was so right. Her hair brushed his face and it still tickled softly...it still smelled the same, felt the same...it was like an overwhelming case of déjà vu. He would be patient with her, he knew...he needed to be. He had to know what had happened. And he had no problem with holding her close like this while she told him.

“I defend Fred and George Weasley and their outrageous products, but it’s interesting to say the least...and I do win all of my cases,” he assured her, smiling a bit even though she couldn’t see. He unconsciously traced soothing circles onto her back, and he was tempted to play with her hair. These were such familiar things that it was easy to want to believe that he was tugging this all out of a memory and projecting it to himself in a dream, but then again...it was so real that there was no way this could be faked.

He understood what she was saying. It fit with his prediction of what had happened, but it was hard for him to think that he was one of those ties she had to cut...it struck him more deeply than he cared to admit, “It was the safest thing for you to do, really...I know that there were so few people that could really be trusted. Getting out was smart...” he wasn’t at all angry at her. He just wished that he’d known something. It would have been easier if he thought that she hated him...but the way she was clinging to him did not suggest that at all.

“...please just tell me that you’ve been happy. I can bear all this if you’ve been happy,” he told her. If he had it his way, he’d never let go of her again. He wanted more than anything to tell her that he still loved her. His heart ached for it, the words were on the tip of his tongue, but he wasn’t certain that was exactly something she wanted to hear.

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[info]trishstimpson
2010-09-22 05:14 pm UTC (link)
In a way she'd always known that he would look for her no matter what, but a small part of her had hoped he'd simply taken it at face value for what was going on then and found a way to move on. It made her feel just a bit worse when she realized she was glad he'd looked for her. It was just more confirmation of what they'd felt. Proof that it wasn't a beautiful dream she'd thought up sometime and that she'd never have to come crashing back to reality because it wouldn't prove to be false. It made her love him more than she ever thought was possible.

They were probably giving a lot of amusement to the people of Diagon Alley with their dramatic reunion, but Trish couldn't find herself to care. In reality she didn't even remember that they were out in public. Right now her entire world was focused on Alix. The feel of him, the smell of him, everything about him. Alix, Alix, Alix. Nothing else was penetrating her thought process. She just needed to be here with him and give him the explanations she owed him and then perhaps convince him that it was ok for her to drag him home with her. She certainly didn't want to relinquish him.

She nearly panicked when he let go of her hand, but calmed when he simply wrapped that arm around her as well. She followed his lead, wrapping her now freed arm around him as well as he spoke. "So it's because of them that we've met again so soon? I'll have to send them a gift basket," she quipped, snuggling into him. She meant it too. While she'd fully expected to go the entire week ultimatum before steeling herself to see him she couldn't help but be thrilled and grateful now that it had happened so soon. The fear she'd had about the meeting had all but evaporated just being with him and now she wondered why she'd been so worried in the first place. Even if he did get angry with her she was certain they could work it out.

"Safest," she repeated the word after he said it, a frown marring her features as she sighed deeply. "I thought it was then. Everything was so tense and I was just getting higher and higher strung as time went." And he was gone so much for his posts that the things she heard seemed so much worse and like it was just around the corner. She'd even heard other Aurors talking about who they thought would be in on the 'new regime'. "And it seemed like I'd just gotten out when they started calling in muggleborns for questioning." And she'd known her position at the Ministry wouldn't save her.

"To an extent." How could she ever be truly and completely happy if he wasn't around? "I found a new job and I thrived at it. I made new friends. It was like I had a whole new life for myself." And she paused there, tilting her head up to look at him. "But there was always something missing. Someone missing."

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[info]savagelaw
2010-09-22 09:58 pm UTC (link)
Truthfully he didn’t care where it was they were. He was barely even aware of anyone around them. Friends or family could have walked down the street and he wouldn’t have paid them any attention at all. His every thought was directed to the girl standing there in his arms...she was everything that had ever truly been good in his life. How could he not center his focus on her now? His mind was still chaotic, going a million different directions purely because he had so much that he needed to know, but they were all in consideration to his predicament with her.

He chuckled softly when she mentioned sending the twins a gift basket. He shuddered to think what they would do with such an offering. They weren’t exactly known for their conventionality. He rather thought they would find some way to turn it into a joke. But he was happy to hear the statement...it was just so utterly ‘Trish.’ It made him just want to disapparate with her and keep her all to himself for a few days, because this really was her. The idea that they might not see each other again for even a day or two struck a sort of horror deep within him.

“You’re right...it was shortly after that when the Ministry went downhill. I couldn’t leave because I was sure they’d track me and my whole family down if they thought I was disagreeing. The fact that I worked with them left me so vulnerable. I thought...for a while that maybe you’d been snatched, but when there was no resurfacing, I tried to rule that out...I really hoped that you’d just left. The alternative was too terrible to think about,” his own features were pulled into a severe frown. He remembered those days all too vividly...when he’d been worried about her every waking moment. He’d searched with only people that he trusted with her life...her life, because it was more important to him than his own.

He had been planning to ask her what alternative career path she had turned to, but when her gaze caught his and she said those words...the ones that he’d felt all along, he couldn’t think of any words to say. He felt like a soulless man when she wasn’t with him...like everything that was vital in him for true happiness was gone, but he’d gotten very good at pretending to be happy. Merlin, he hoped he wouldn’t have to pretend anymore.

His features as he looked at her betrayed such tenderness. She hadn’t said it in so many words, but she seemed to be telling him that there had never been anyone else for her either...that her happiness was dependent upon him in the same way that his was on her. Alix simply could not restrain himself. He kissed her like he had wanted to for years. It wasn’t precisely a chaste kiss, but it was entirely gentle at the same time. Perhaps it was forward, but he didn’t care...not when he loved her so much, not when he needed her like this.

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[info]trishstimpson
2010-09-22 10:33 pm UTC (link)
The thought of sending the twins a gift basket made her wonder if they were in there now. If so then they would be one of the ones witnessing the scene Alix and Trish were causing. They might be hindering their business. Trish couldn't find it in herself to care though. Alix was here now, with her, and that was all that mattered. It was all she could think about. Nothing else mattered. A riot could break out and she wouldn't notice. She was just that focused on the man with her now. How could she not be? How could anyone ever expect her to notice anything or anyone else?

His words about what happened when she'd left only confirmed her fears and she clutched at him. He was here though. He'd made it through that. The fact that he'd had to be part of it at all was still a painful thought. She knew that he would have been doing what he could to keep things running correctly, but she was also just as certain that things were forced on them all that none of them wanted to be involved in. She didn't want to think about the types of things he might have been witness to. It had to have been terrible. She hoped that the Ministry was better now and not nearly as defunct as it had been all those years ago. She really didn't get how it could have gotten so horridly corrupt in the first place.

"I thought that if I stayed I would have been dealt with," she'd certainly heard enough that she would be as well as the rest of the muggleborns working there. They were evidently to be the first. "Where I went just seemed so untouched by the war that seemed to be raging in England and the surrounding areas. It was surreal. Nearly perfect. I thought so many times about contacting you. Trying to get you to come." It had been a painful decision each time she hadn't. "But I was afraid. Afraid they'd intercept it and you'd get in trouble." She hadn't even thought about the fact they might come for her. The fact that Alix was still there, still part of the Ministry. It made her shudder.

By Merlin if her thoughts didn't shut down and then quickly zero in when his lips covered her own. All thoughts of her feeble explanations flew from her mind as they reconnecting in such an intimate way again. It felt like they hadn't been split for a little over five years when they kissed. It was like they were simply picking it back up after a bit of time away and that everything was like it had been back when they'd been together and happy. And by God she was kissing him back and pouring her own feelings into it, all the love and affection she had for him.

"God, Alix, I still love you," she said when the kiss was broken. It was the absolute truth and she wanted him to know. It was probably too soon to be saying something like this, but she wanted him to know that this was still how she felt even after all these years. She was certain she would love Alix until the day she died even if he didn't feel the same way back. He had to feel something for her though to share a kiss like that.

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[info]savagelaw
2010-09-22 11:12 pm UTC (link)
Even though the Ministry was at least mostly set right now, Alix hadn’t been able to stay there. He’d seen too much corruption, and he couldn’t bear all of the things that had happened there. He could not accept that he couldn’t find Trish, and he could not keep from seeing the terrified faces of all the people that had been wrongly hunted down. He had done his best to remain true to his calling...he had tried to go against the political power of the Ministry, but he couldn’t always. He despised what he had seen. Especially after the final battle...the death of children, friends, teachers, families. The memories still haunted him.

“I would have come if I’d known, but I know they were monitoring my activity. I was little better than a muggleborn to them, what with the fact that I’m not pure. Contact probably would have only brought you back into danger...I’m glad that you were able to get away from all of it. Europe was not a pleasant place to be,” he told her soberly. It was the truth, and he wasn’t going to hide that from her. She likely knew a lot of what happened, even if she hadn’t been there to experience it. It was a soothing thought to him that she was somewhere that the war did not touch. Knowing that she was as safe as she could have been...that was what mattered to him.

She erased his every worry with just her presence, and when she kissed him back, he thought for sure that she had to feel the same. He wanted to make up for lost time with her. There was no way to get those years back, but he could live out the rest of his life ensuring that she was safe and happy. He had the wildest thoughts of a future he had long written off before then. For the first time in a long time, he actually wanted something for himself. Maybe it was selfish...maybe he shouldn’t want it, but he didn’t think he could ever let her go again.

The words that fell from her lips made his world right again. It had been slowly reviving over the last few minutes, but it wasn’t until she said that she loved him that he put all his faith into it, “I love you too, Trish. There has never been anyone else for me, and there never will be,” it was a promise, a vow. He’d never even dated anyone after her, because no one ever caught his interest...they never could. He was still so much in love with her. He still had a ring in a box somewhere that he’d never gotten the chance to give her...he couldn’t help but wonder if now some day she’d wear it.

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[info]trishstimpson
2010-09-23 12:01 am UTC (link)
She didn't dwell on the fact that she wasn't there for her friends when the war came. The only thing she completely regretted was not being there for Alix. She'd cared for all her friends, but she would have told them all the same thing, to get the hell out of dodge. If they didn't do it, well, then that was on them. She may have been sorted into Gryffindor, but she knew when it was best to cut and run. An impending war with a mad man seemed like the absolute perfect time. It was only more perfect when he was targeting people like Patricia and so she'd left.

"It's terrible that things were so bad for you too. I'm sure that the only people who enjoyed what was going on where the elitist snobs and sociopaths." She could think of a few that were still around from what she was hearing. There was a savage glee in her that neither of them were with the Ministry any more and it appeared that neither one planned on going back. If she had her way she'd have only the bare minimum to do with them. She knew she couldn't cut the Ministry out completely, but she'd do her absolute best to keep them cut out as much as she could. Somehow she doubted they'd keep it clean and good.

His words made everything right. Even if he still had any sort of anger at how she'd done things she knew that they'd be able to work through it. Things would be right between them. The two of them. It wasn't just going to be Patricia now or just Alixandr. It was going to be them, Trish and Alix, Alix and Trish, again. Merlin she wanted to kiss him again. She wanted to drag him home with her and never let him go. She wanted to spend every waking moment with him. Nothing else mattered to her, not right now. Just him. It was always just him for her.

"You're the only one there has been for me too. Just you. No one there." Oh she'd been asked before and she was certain he'd been asked to. She'd calmly told them no and explained she had someone waiting back home that she wanted to go back to someday. No amount of them trying to rationalize with her worked. It was part of the reason she'd used Alix's last name while she was down there. It was more proof to her that he was the only one for her.

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[info]savagelaw
2010-09-23 02:24 am UTC (link)
Of course there had been girls that tried to bait him, but he had nothing to give them, and he wouldn’t pretend that he did. Back in school he had flirted with girls, then he fell in love with Patricia...after that, there had been no turning back. He was another one of those love-struck saps that quoted poetry and pined after her when she was gone. And he had done a lot of pining over the last five years. Even when he had buried it so deeply within himself and pretended that he was fine, he had never been the same without Trish. It was like living in a world with no sun...no air...

And all of the sudden, he could breathe once more and the sun heated his skin like it was still the middle of summer. It felt like the last five years had been some kind of cosmic joke on the both of them. They had endured so much...but what mattered was they were back together again. For all he cared, the rest of the world could fade away, and he could just stay somewhere happy with Trish until the end of their days. He could drop everything on a dime and make up for what they had lost. The thought was almost too tempting.

He still held her closely, but loose enough that he could see her face, so that he could see her as he spoke, “If there’s any good in the world, you’ll say that you don’t have anywhere else to be tonight...I don’t care where we go, but please stay with me,” he didn’t feel at all ashamed about asking, or the way that his tone suggested he’d beg her if he had to. He wasn’t nearly ready to be apart from her at all. There was no way that he could be.

If he left there alone, he’d pace somewhere like a caged animal. He would worry and wonder...convince himself that it wasn’t reality. He didn’t know that he would be sane by the end of the night. He already felt as though he was on the edge...he felt so much more whole, but it was tediously fragile. Mostly, he just selfishly wanted all the time with her he could get.

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[info]trishstimpson
2010-09-23 03:22 am UTC (link)
Most people would probably care about things like that, but Trish didn’t. She fully expected people to try to entice Alix and get him to be with them. To her he was perfect and so who wouldn’t want him? She certainly couldn’t imagine people not wanting him. And yes, she would happily admit to being biased. She honestly didn’t see what was so wrong with being biased. And in the end all those women lost and Alix was still her’s and she fully intended to keep it that way as long as he wanted her. She could only hope that he’d continue to want her as long as she was going to want him.

There had been people before that told Trish that her world revolving almost completely around just one person wasn’t healthy. They tried to get her to ‘broaden her horizons’ and some such. She didn’t want to. She had thought a time or two in school she’d found her ‘one’, but she’d been wrong. When she’d met Alix she truly realized what it meant to have the one person she was meant for. And if he decided to leave her, well, then she’d happily die old and alone and with the memories she had made with him. Her mum seemed to at least understand as she’d told Trish she felt the same way about Trish’s father.

The smile on her face had to look absolutely ridiculous as his words invoked what was most undoubtedly the most giddy and happy expression she’d had in a while. “I don’t. My only plans tonight were to come to Diagon Alley and do some shopping and I’ve got everything I came for.” She didn’t need anything from the WWW and so she could come back a different time to see it. “I don’t have any plans on parting from you tonight. Not now that we’ve run into each other and talked.” She fully planned on continuing to reacquaint herself with him again.

“Let’s go?” She worded it as a question, but her arms dropped from around his waist, while one quickly reached out and snatched his hand, lacing her fingers with his. She started walking, tugging him along with her. She was kind of afraid that if she let go of him he might disappear. Of course they didn’t get very fair before she stopped and blinked. “Oh. Um, we shouldn’t go where I’m staying. I was going to take you to my place, but, well... My parents are there.” And it seemed so wrong to say she was living at home again, but it was only temporary. Her move back had been just as quick as her move away. “We could go to your place?”

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[info]savagelaw
2010-09-24 03:58 am UTC (link)
He was absolutely certain that he would never voluntarily leave her. He knew what it was like to be separated from her. Alix wasn’t the kind of guy that just liked the idea of her. He was absolutely in love with her. He had been when she was there before, and he had never gotten over her. There was just something about Trish that was entirely special. He wouldn’t find anyone else out in the world better suited to be with him. Why would he ever give that up again? The thought was ludicrous.

Her expression of happiness was reflected in his own features when she said she didn’t plan to part from him that evening. He could not have received better news right then. Alix made sure that they did not forget her bag from where she’d dropped it on the ground, but he held tightly to her hand. He was comforted by the once-familiar gesture...the way that her hand still fit so perfectly in his. He was busy marveling the small fact when she stopped all of the sudden again. He immediately worried that something was wrong, but her concern could easily be remedied.

His first reaction was to ask her which place, considering he lived out of two homes. One of them was considerably closer than the other, for the purpose that he lived and worked there when he had a lot to do. However, he could never have given up his place in Scotland. That was home to him...it was hard for him to be away from there for too long. He couldn’t imagine what it had been like for Trish to be so far from everything that she loved. All over again, he felt overwhelmed with compassion for her...wanting to hold her close again.

“Of course. It hasn’t changed a great deal in the last few years,” he told her with a bit of a smile. It had changed some with time, as all things did, but she would at least recognize some familiar things. It had always been more space than Alix needed for himself, but he had ended up with it at his father’s insistence just after leaving school. Even still, he didn’t want to part from her...he didn’t want to take the chance, so he held to her tightly and disapparated to his home in Glasgow. They were right there in his living room like they had been hundreds of times before. Everything was tidy and in it’s proper place, but it looked lived in as well, as was his style, “If I’d known I was having company, I would have cleaned,” he teased.

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[info]trishstimpson
2010-09-24 04:53 am UTC (link)
It was a good thing that Alix remembered her bags because Trish had most definitely forgotten about them. She honestly wasn’t even thinking about the fact of why she’d come to Diagon Alley. Right at this moment the only thing that was dominating her mind were thoughts of Alix. Eventually she would remember and probably have a miniature melt down only to forget all about it again when she found out that Alix had remembered for her. For the most part her mind was probably going to be fixated on Alix for a number of days. She wasn’t going to complain though since it was a happy fixation rather than the worried one it had been stuck on since coming back to England.

When his arm tightened around her she knew what was coming and she squeezed her eyes shut. She didn’t have a problem apparating alone, but for some reason doing it with someone else she always felt the need and since she wasn’t the one doing it she was free to indulge in said need. Her eyes popped open though when she felt it end and she took in her surroundings. Just looking around gave her a familiar sense of warm and safety, of coming home from a long vacation. She’d spent a lot of time here with him in the past and a happy ache of nostalgia bubbled up. It was good to see that not too much had changed in the years she had been gone.

“Oh yes, it’s a real pig sty in here. I don’t know how you can stand it,” she quipped, glancing up at him in amusement. Alix had always been a tidy person and she didn’t ever see that changing. She loved that about him though. While she might be quite carefree in everyday life, she did rather prefer things to be tidy at home. It was one thing to be messy and crazy when you were having fun and another to bring that home. Coming home to a clean house meant less stress and more time to enjoy what you loved. Which in her case would be Alix. Him being tidy meant more time together in her mind.

She moved forward, putting her hands on the arms he had wrapped around her waist to keep them there and effectively trapping him against her so that he would have to walk along with her. She wasn’t going far and when she reached a comfortable place for them both to sit she turned so their backs were to it before letting go and bumping her rear against him to push him down into the seat. She grinned over her shoulder at him before moving to sit next to him. “Have to get comfortable, you know,” she commented as she moved closer to him, cuddling into his side. She frowned thoughtfully before grabbing his arm and maneuvering it around her as she nodded happily, head leaning on his shoulder. “Much better.”

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[info]savagelaw
2010-09-24 03:22 pm UTC (link)
It had been instilled in him since he was a young lad that he needed to keep his living space clean. Like most people, he’d gone through a stage where he had strewn things around everywhere, but it had bothered him intensely, so he’d kept things straightened up ever since. He didn’t have much clutter, even though he had a lot of things. The room was decorated with a couch, chairs, a rug over hardwood floors, a coffee table, mirrors, pictures...all of your usual things, but he didn’t have a lot of extras beyond the norm. Alix had always been rather frugal, and he was living beyond comfortably. He could go to bed with the sound knowledge that he had more than enough money in the bank to sustain him for a long time. He wasn’t sure if he’d ever consider sharing that with anyone again, but there she was...there was no doubt in his mind that he’d share it with Trish.

He grinned as she pulled him along, not even considering letting go, but pleased that she wasn’t even giving him the choice. Letting her do what she pleased, he felt like he was in a scene from his past. This had probably happened before, at least somewhat, probably more than once...it seemed like he was at least five years younger and so was she, “Comfort is a most important thing,” he commented, waiting for her to pull his arm around her like she used to. He couldn’t help but smirk slightly when she did, just because he’d been right. He shifted just slightly, ensuring that he was holding her closely enough, that she was contented.

Pressing his cheek to her hair, he breathed deeply, taking in the scent of her and relaxing against the cushions of the couch. He could be entirely satisfied in a silence when they were like this, but it had been so long that he felt like he needed to talk to her. He needed to know all that had happened, and she’d mentioned some things that he wanted a bit of clarification on. He was sure that she’d want the same things from him.

“You mentioned a job in Australia...what did you do?” he asked, figuring that was an easy enough question to answer, “How long have you been back?” That was another question that weighed heavily on his mind. Still, his tone was just the same. No matter what her answer was, he would make sure she stayed right there with him. Alix never wanted to let her go.

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[info]trishstimpson
2010-09-26 01:18 am UTC (link)
This was turning out to be one of the best days that Trish felt she was ever going to have. She honestly didn't think that that when she met up with Alix again that it would go well. She'd certainly hoped that it would go well, but had thought with how she left there was absolutely no way that things could go very well. It was nice to know that she was wrong. This was definitely one time that she wasn't going to be upset about being wrong either. She could only hope that meeting up with her old friends went nearly as nice as meeting up with Alix did. Though if it didn't go as good she'd at least have Alix to come back to until she could fix things. That thought was just absolutely amazing to her and something she wanted to simply revel in.

She was starting to think that the smile that was etched on her face was going to end up being stuck there permanently. She couldn't remember a time she'd smiled so much. And the memories that this scene brought up... That only made the idea of the smile staying seem more likely. "Of course it is. Wouldn't do to sit here all stiff and uncomfortable." And it was nice that he let her get so comfortable with him and do as she liked, within reason of course.

Her head turned into him and her eyes closed as she breathed deeply. She'd already done this once, when they'd hugged, but she was recommitting his scent to memory. She fully planned on doing this often. Well as often as he was willing to let her. She wanted to engrain his entire presence back into her mind permanently.

"I got a job at a muggle aquarium. It's amazing how dirty fish can be," she responded, grinning against him. She remembered the days there that she'd done nothing but clean tanks. Actually that was what she was mainly doing now. It sucked having to start from the bottom again. "I've only been back a couple days, actually. The first few were spent getting everything from Australia up here because I kind of forgot the whole bit about being able to do magic." Which caused her to blush a bit in embarrassment when she thought about it. She hadn't remembered until she was at her parents' home and unpacking her things manually.

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