"I don't believe in violence either," Zadkiel said. "I had no idea it would be such an issue for some people." He couldn't help the grimace that twisted his face.
"As for faith... I have faith in God. I lost faith in the Elders when I got old enough to really realize what was going on. I think... or I wonder, really, if I hadn't turned a card and still knew what I know, if I would have stayed or left. If I ever would have questioned. It scares me that I might not have."