Well you didn't, that had to mean a lot, time was you'd have done that without blinking.
The magic here does seem to be able to bring out the worst in people.
Sounds like you need a drink I know I do I got told that the most noble and good thing I ever did, sacrificing my happiness for a person I loved was the wrong thing to do, and if I'd been selfish and followed my heart it would have all worked out. So basically who I am is a mistake. So excuse me of I fail at tract, but I need to get very drink for a long time.