Jacen
They're not lying to me. They're hiding something from me. They say that it's better that I don't know and maybe it is, but...
How do I look at my friends and family in the eye knowing that they know that I did some really messed up stuff without me knowing exactly what it is I did? How many people did I hurt? Who did I attack, Jacen? Dean? Bobby? You? My wife?
I feel like I need to apologize to everyone and I don't even know what for.