I'm not sure if that would be better or worse. I'm going to guess better since I suspect we'll be in the same boat as you. Just non existant. But ultimately you know you exist, you know you played an important part. A very important one if I remember correctly
They're not just a play sword. It really does take years to perfect the techiques, find the fighting style that suits you, learn every aspect of it and then of course make one of your own, find a crystal that attunes to it, and to you. Its complex. More so than most assume