Lydia
She needed you, and everyone else she's badmouthing me to. What was I supposed to do. The trust had died, but more than anything else I wanted to ensure no one was caught in the middle. And yes, you are, Tom is. But he tries. He doesn't talk to Alex about me or me about her unless its in an attempt to fix things. He lives here but goes out with her regularly. No I didn't have to talk to her. But you know Alex, she'd have talked to me.
Yes, they do. But it was never about that. They see what you do not. That my life, as of now, is awful. Is a mess. I don't want to see her, to think about her, to remember her. Because I do still love her. I just don't like her.
I know you did. And I know who else you mean. But it makes the above no less true