You say that, and okay, maybe they are, except 90% of what you've done here isn't terrible. And there was the Jerry thing but he tricked you and considering people never held Peter Vincent's part in Maleficent's insanity against him, they shouldn't hold Jerry's trickery against you, either. It's stupid and petty and not remotely the "Lawrence is for second chances" motto they pretend his place has. Truth is, it's only for people they don't form preconceived ideas about based on word of mouth from others. Second they hear you did this or that in your world, you're done, they'll write you off and everything you do from then on is scrutinized and seen with some ulterior motive.
I'm sure a few choice people probably assume I helped with Sam's soul situation for some ulterior motive. I didn't. I can track people, and I know how to hide. It was useful, considering. And I helped the group that went for him in the end. But instead, everyone brings up Hal. Or Moriarty. Even the descent things mean nothing. I mean, minor as it is, I did give my house up entirely to a set of strangers after the complex blew up. I've done selfless things, but no one pays mind to that.