No matter what progress you make in one aspect, your losing grip somewhere else. I know the feeling.
You hold to your beliefs, fiercely. And I like that about you. A lot, actually. You're not weak-willed or weak-minded. You're not easily persuaded and I don't think either of us could do or say anything to make you betray Heaven. Not the proper Heaven, what it's supposed to be. And the idea that I'd even try to is an insult and your brother can bite me for suggesting it.