Kon
Try more than one word answers in your cries for help.
Try actually eating instead of hoping you'll eventually just waste away and not have to care.
Try realising that yeah, some more people might wind up lost to the seal, but if you push everyone away you'll wind up alone before the seal does a damn thing and deprive yourself of any time you could have had. And as someone that was an expert in pushing people away. Its not worth it