No, you don't know. Because this is magic and it's different than your cycle of psychopathy. And what do you seriously not get about I don't even want it anymore?!
I took the- you're so the last person to talk about an easy way out. I took the easy way out the first time, I made Mitchell kill me because I couldn't handle what I was. And who the fuck honestly cares if it was the easy way out if it makes me be able to blend more easily and actually be able to socialize with people? I can have a life again and I think that's fucking good thing.