[Private] Why do I keep seeing these things in my dreams? There's always people around me, smiling or following me around like I'm some king or whatever, and they don't exactly give off a vibe of being well-intentioned folks, either. And what's up with the clustered trio of sixes that keep showing up? That's like a. a.. no. No no no no, that's not me. The accidents are kinda thrilling, but wrong, unnatural. And the notion of power kinda feels good. But not right.
And it seems like I fucked up again after that last attack. Need to et better control of this. Security is supposed to be perfect at protection. Some of these deaths happened on my watch, how could this happen?! I can't tell my family about my new abilities. Don't want them to freak out. Also can't shake the feeling that something is wrong here. That I should be doing something more. This is really so goddamn confusing. I was better off when I was just a guard with ambitions of getting promoted to the highest ranks. [/Private
Okay, seriously, these dreams can stop. I don't like them. They're disturbing. Kinda feels like something a bad guy would dream. And I feel like a very bad guy in some of them But I don't feel like that. I don't know if it's just a dream and nothing else, or if it actually means something. But for some reason I don't understand, some things must have taken place to change that, because I still feel like doing my job and helping keep this all safe.
Might want to hold off on going back on the 3rd floor, though. At least until the light fixtures are fixed in that area. Janitors, Management, whoever handles that, they need to be replaced asap. And.. uhh, the knobs on the doors too. And the water fountain overflow.. cleaned up what I could. Anyone that was there last night, it.. was me. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to do that. Got quite a bit banged up by a ghost again too. I'm fine. Got a few bruises and some cuts, busted knuckles, but it's fine
[Security Filter] I don't like this, I wish there was more I could have done to prevent those deaths. But until I get a handle on this, it might be best if I stuck to patrols in the basement or parking lot. Or I can be paired with another guard so there's a better chance of stopping another killing from taking place.