John Watson internationally smuggles tea (imhisblogger) wrote in wariscomingcom, @ 2014-01-14 20:10:00 |
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Rose,
I want to be there for you, but I don't know what happened. Or how to be. I don't know what you need. I've been told time. Just time and to let you work it out. I always hated that response, time. They need time. Maddening as it is it does get better. I know. Trust me I know. It gets a little less hard every day. Just one day at a time. You told me that once, and I believe in you Rose Tyler. I don't believe in much else in this world, but I believe in you. I know you can work through this, and when you do I'll be here.
You're the reason I've been able to keep going. I'm bloody awful at saying these things, but writing them is a bit easier. You said it sounded off coming from me on the internet, and you were right. It was off. I was off. I don't know how to help. I'm getting better though. You don't need to worry about me. You know, save living with Sherlock again and the apparent bats we've adopted. Yes, bats. So help me if there is one bat in my room-but you know, it's Sherlock. Probably should have expected something like bats. All the same, just focus on you. Don't worry about everything else. Your center is being cared for by Lois and your teachers, Toby is getting two or maybe five meals a day depending how much he begs.
I can't fix what happened to you as much as I want to be able to. I can't even make you believe I'm truly me, but I hope this letter helps a little. You used to like my writing anyway. Words are tangible and powerful. Something real. I promise no more fanfiction. That was a terrible joke, I don't even know if you remember it. I do though. It was funny for a while.
Jokes aside, you gave me someone to believe in again when everything came crashing down around me. You were there. You and Florence and Harry, and Sherlock you were all there. You're the best friends I've had.
I miss you but I'll be here when you're ready. Nobody else can decide when that is.
I'm even including my horrid middle name just for further proof that this is me, I don't do that for just anyone.
Forever your friend,
John H. Watson