A good start! Chili is all hearty and shit. Fills you up, right?
Because they tortured you and drove you insane? Why wouldn't you feel all messed? It's what you choose to do now that you're up top that'll make all the difference. If you keep drowning yourself in self-hatred? You're not going to get better.
And like I said before. It's not going to happen overnight. You just got back. But it's better to try than not, isn't it?
A job might be a good thing. If you need an assist, I'm your girl.