No. I'm not ready to die, and I won't do that. If I go back, I'm changing it.
That's not what I meant by too late. It's too late for you. And you know that. That's why you want to win this, so much. You don't want to play the long game anymore, you want Sam Winchester so badly because then you can finish this. Before we rally, before we find a way to stop you. Because if you lose, that's it. It's over. No one will show you mercy, and you'll be alone again. Forever.
He never wanted to fight you. Or Heaven. But he was tired of being caught in the middle. He was tired of being alone. And I think he was worried he'd end up like you.