Look, I'm sorry if I'm coming off as condescending. Trust me, until I ended up in this place I really wasn't like that. But I'm trying to get you to do something that will help you in the long run. So go ahead and talk to Derek about this. But please filter this post. I may be coming off like a jerk but I honestly don't want to see anyone else get their head screwed with right now. It wasn't pretty when Lucifer was doing it to people who've been here a while, and I can just imagine it would be worse for you.