Don't be sorry. If I had never become a werewolf I never would have had my daughter Jesse, met you, met Mercy. Things happen for a reason. A lot of times we can't see that reason right away. It takes time.
You can Mac. It took courage and bravery to escape from the men who had taken you. You're stronger than you give yourself credit for.
I learned when I was still human that there's no such thing as normal Mac. Everyone is different and has difference experiences. It was makes them unique. The fact that you can now turn into a wolf on the fulls or when you want/need to makes you even more unique. Don't be afraid of what you are. Focus instead on who you want to become. Just because you can turn into a werewolf doesn't make you a monster. Trust me. I've seen plenty of humans do monstrous things in my lifetime.