I didn't. I never even knew werewolves existed until the warlord I was assigned to kill in Vietnam attacked me and my squad. Only myself and one other man made it out alive. I felt lost and confused when I found out what I was. But by that time I was back in the States and I came across a man named Bran. He helped me accept what I am. Sometimes things happen for a reason Mac. We may not always know the reason at first, we may never know. And a lot of times life seems unfair. But there are no easy outs in life. Life is a challenge.
Getting to control the wolf will take time but you can do it. I know you can. It will always be a challenge to keep the wolf in check but once you can control the wolf, you can protect the people you care about.