I tried for a while, explaining myself, explaining how things changed back home. But I realised eventually I don't much care how I am thought of. People will think what they will. I did what I did for my own reasons and you did what you did, for yours.
If you're willing to wait and see if things are different then I expect we'll have more to discuss. If not then you are another friend to Marian, and she will be glad to have you here