Jacen
Something that I have come to realize, Jacen, is that no matter how much we would like to we cannot always protect our child. She has to be allowed to grow. She has to be allowed to fail, it is the only way that she will learn. And I know that you want to protect her at all costs, but you can't. She's growing up and she needs the mistakes to learn. Letting her learn from her mistakes doesn't mean that you love her any less.
Why do you need to be the one to best her? Why do you need to make her sorry? Do you realize that you do not have to jump in and be the one to do anything? You could assist others in dealing with her as a threat, you know. It would put you in less danger, there would be less weight on you, and it would mean you do not need to check in on the rest of us for fear that she had done something to us.
I have no pity for you, Jacen. I find pity to be a worthless emotion. I feel for you at times, but I do not pity you. You made your decisions and you deal with them and you strive to be better in spite of everything that you face. I see nothing to pity there. I loved the Jacen that I knew before Myrkr, but I love you as you are now for all the flaws that you have, for all of you. It is not an idealistic childish love. I love you, knowing everything that I do about what you have done and been through. I believe that because we have overcome so much, both individually and together that is a stronger sort of love than how I felt about you before Myrkr, wouldn't you say?