I understand. My family had a history with darkness, working for the wrong side and all.. which had changed near the end. And my father had been hoping for second chances when he was here, for redemption. But I know that the person he was in that era is not the same person I had grown up with. He did get better.
So if you ever need someone to talk to or if you would need any help, I'm around for it, at any time. I'm believing that you can work through this. And it may help that there are people who would be willing to help out, myself included. Plus you have friends too. Ohh... and thank you so much for those birthday cookies. They were really great.