When we are children, things often seem safer to us or are at least safer for us than others. It does not mean you were wrong, you just believed in your parents and that is perfectly normal.
Having people who believe in you always helps. Believe me, I know. And I know how daunting a task it can seem to try and change your life but because I have done so for myself, I know it is possible. You have the determination and support of those who care for you.