Ruby.
No. I'd rather he didn't kill my mother in front of me when I was a baby. I'd rather he didn't pour demon blood down my throat, thus inducing...this thing. I have. I'm addicted to it and I want it right now but I am NOT drinking off Dean I'd rather he didn't kill my father. Me. Eventually my brother, even if it was an indirect action. I wish he hadn't have brainwashed you.