I have a really hard time believing that. Because you can claim this was an 'accidental' wish, but things like that? Wishing back your magic? It comes from so much deeper. You wanted it and now you're all "oh I have no control on what I do when I have it" when you do.
Magic may be addictive, but it has been your tool and your decisions have always been your own. You lie and manipulate and pretend to care about people so you can learn their weaknesses, make them trust you so you can destroy them. You think you're the only one who has suffered loss and pain? Betrayal? You think you're the only one who has something in them out of their control and that it's an excuse? You think you're the only one who had someone make a mistake thinking it was helping you and that can be your justification? It's not. But it's okay because you're somehow special? Please. You knew what you were doing all along and your justifications are weak because you are so far from special in those terms.
I've been quiet because for others but this is ridiculous. You never want to face the consequences of your own actions. You run. You hide. You cry woe is me. You blame others, the magic. You're too afraid to look at yourself in the mirror and see the truth. That you're throwing a horrendously long tantrum instead of trying to pick up the pieces of your life and move on.
You keep hurting people and still you claim it's accidental. Maybe it wasn't conscious, but that doesn't make it any less true. You don't want to face temptation, you don't want to work towards this redemption you keep claiming you want and instead decide "Hey, I'll take the easy way out. I'll have it so I can't do it anyway!" It doesn't work that way. Because taking the easy way out is just that. Easy.