I make the connections I can. It's harder with so many I've wronged around me. And all the time I have to sit around and think. About what I've done, about who I've become...but also about how it used to be and how easy it would be to bring that part back. But I have to keep actively reminding myself that if I do, I'll probably never come back to where I am, even now, ever again.
I had a daughter once. I never even got to hold her.