Do you realize that in most of the arguments I get into, it's me on the defensive, trying to back out, while sometimes three or four people at a time fucking attack me, telling me what a fucking terrible person I am, or how worthless my opinions are? That I will apologize, or concede their points, or try to clarify my own in less offensive terms, and they sometimes literally make shit up that I never fucking said or blatantly ignore what I did say in order to continue the fight and make me look worse? That I've tried filtering my posts to avoid fights, or backed off arguments as quickly and quietly as I fucking could, and got called a asshole for those too?
Did you know that I've actually managed to cut the amount I drink nearly in fucking half since October? That lately, I ignore posts and comments I would have replied to before because I am that sick of people taking everything I say the entirely wrong way? That I've actually finally made some fucking progress getting my shit together, and maybe three people have actually noticed any of this?
So you tell me, who's been trying harder to not start this shit, me, or them? Because I know I'm not a spectacularly great and likable sort of guy, but I am fucking trying.
And let me tell you, hearing this "Peter is suddenly an asshole" shit coming from everyone else, what the fuck ever. I can deal with that because most of them don't know me at all. But coming from you? That hurts.