That is completely understandable. The fear is natural, but you are not alone in this. I was going to move Emily's things out of her room and put them in mine so you can use that room for Aiden. If you want, you can use the crib I got for Emily as Christina's is upstairs so you don't have to worry about getting a crib, we are covered there. In regards to baby things, we can go shopping for some if you want.
I have been better, but I also have been worse. Emily is doing well, though I have not seen her since my return. I did not wish to upset her by greeting her and then leaving without her.