Andrew
for it not being my fault, seems to happen a lot arround me. mum, dad, ginger, amy, you... everyone gets hurt but me, and its always when im not there, whether its cause im fucking hiding or dont know or what the fuck ever. i havent been ther and i shoudl have been. nd i just... keepon going while everyone else gets hurt.
i am though. am right now. because i cant fuckng hold it together. you keep ending up tkaing care of me when i should be doing it ofr you. i said when we got together i was goign to be better and im failing. im so sorry.
i dont want you to try nad take care of me tonight. i went out and got shitfaced on my own, so i wnat to fukcing pull myself back togehter. because you shouldnt have to deal wtih my mess liket his. i watn to do this. because i cant take care of you if i cant even take care of my own sorry ass self. just wnated you to know that im sorry. and i might be home a bit late. and i love you.