Peter | Ginger | Andrew
To be honest, I'm just tired of all that shit. I know very well what my rep is around here, and anything I do or say in protest is just going to convince them further, so I just don't even want to fucking bother trying. And, as much as I love you for it, anything you or Andrew or anyone else that knows me says is just going to do the same. That's how sheep work - they think everyone else is just sheep from a different flock.
It doesn't really matter. I know who my friends are here, and someone else made sure that the original point didn't get forgotten, and that's all I need.
It ever does change, that's when you know something is really wrong.
[Ginger] That's the thing though, I don't know what I think about it. All I know is I want this to work. I want it more than I think I've ever wanted anything before. Because when he's there... I don't even know.
And yeah, I am scared. Hell, I'm fucking terrified. Because what does that even mean? Getting that entirely wrapped up in another person? What happens if he changes his mind, or if the Seal takes him again, or something else happens? I don't think I could take that happening. Not again. Not with him.
Or what if I fuck it up? What if I can't keep to just him? I don't... he deserves better than me. He really does.