...I don't want to know. Clearly you've got some issues if you feel it's necessary to almost kill yourself in order to prove people wrong about their beliefs.
It's not. It's really not. I get why you think so, but really, it's not.
At the very least, can you humor me on the idea that it might possibly be true, and put a filter on here against evil? If you really are hallucinating, it can't hurt anything. If you aren't, then at least everyone who's commented here isn't being exposed.