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...I liked it better when things were easier.
I know I'm not, but I feel like I'm being singled out to be mocked and picked apart. I am aware that is more then likely not true, but that's how it feels, and it's getting harder and harder to pretend it doesn't hurt every time it happens.
I...you call it self-pity, but every time you speak to me these days, it makes me want to pretend you don't exist because I feel like I can never do anything that would make you happy. That you only bother with me when I screw up and it's difficult to keep that masked when it happens.
I want to be your friend, Peter, but I don't enjoy being judged constantly and that's what it feels like to me that is what you are doing.
...and I'm rambling, sorry. Feel free to ignore this, I shouldn't have even wrote it.