oh, so you're going to dig your heels in and ignore us trying to get through to you, is that it? Family or not, it doesn't make him any less of a bad person. If you're so determined to follow in his footsteps, then you have more fucking issues than I thought.
Take some advice. If you really want to turn yourself around, then do it. He's not here whispering poison in your ear anymore. So take your chance.