Yes, it can. Fear of facing it all. The things I've done? You don't do with a conscience... you don't do it if you feel. And not feeling as an option, so I didn't. Now I'm five centuries in and...I don't know, being here, it's been different than it was at home... I've been more outcasted here than I ever have been. Makes for a lonely existence...and lots of time to think. I think there's gotta be something else out there besides how I've lived. It's always been bout survival for me before. Survival and strategy, what move I needed to make to advance myself to the next, better option.