Can't change the past, no matter how much we might want to. There's so much stuff I wish I could take back. And yet making it all right again seems so hard and you end up screwing up all over again. Yeah, I get that. It's why I ended up with prices on my head from both sides.
Because you're a vampire, right? We don't have them in Wonderland. Bad emotions, they're fucking terrifying. I ran from them for years. So easy to do, just drank a tea and escaped to something easy. But hey, if I can get clean and that does remain to be seen admittedly, then you can face the bad ones.
Sounds like progress to me, love. And it doesn't bother me being in the minority. You just got to get through the process, one step at a time. Like getting clean of being selfish because that can be an addiction too.