Sounds like good reasons to me. I get what it's like, being the one shunned by both sides. It's how I used to live. And trying to make amends is hard. Trying to do the right thing when there's a price on your head as it is.
Emotions are a bitch, aren't they. I don't remember what a true emotion feels like, not really. I know only what the teas made me feel. I want to know what the real thing feels like again. So I get where you're coming from.
Sounds like you deserve a chance. Loads of people do bad things and it might have started out as good reasons but somewhere things got lost along the way.